Appreciate

Hello hot stuff! :p

So here am I again..

I had been through the stupid exam, had my princess life (loyal readers should knew that my princess life is equal to holiday :p) and now finally, back again to Inti nilai L

Depart at 5pm from Raub, reached Inti at 8pm..

Super late due to heavy rain and traffic jam..

Today is first day for my cousin sister in Inti..

Yup, she will be studying here for diploma in business admin..

And her room is just three door next to mine..

So after reached Inti, we get into our room, be prepared and headed out for dinner..

Dinner was just for me and her, as my boyfriend is too tired to have dinner..

During dinner, my aunt also my cousin sister’s mum called her..

To ask stuff like ‘where are you now?’, ‘you got tidy up your room?’, and ‘had your dinner?’

Just a very short conversation between them..

I was not eavesdropping, but she was just sitting right in front of me and talked to the mum..

So right after the conversation, my cousin sister burst out crying..

I was so shocked seeing her that way..

Okay, she was the type that look very though..

So it is hard to imagine or even see her in this way..

She was not having any difficulties in new environment, just that she missed the mum a lot, she said..

I didn’t really console her..

It was hard..

It is the stage that she must endure it in order to grow..

I had been there before..

So don’t judge me, saying that I am being mean and cruel..

I had been there before, I understood how she felt..

When I saw her crying, there was an urge for me to cry as well..

I missed my mum , too..

The holiday was god damn short..

I haven’t steamboat with my mum, haven’t bring her to Valley Resort for lunch, haven’t cleaned up the store room for her, and more..

Seeing her now was like seeing myself at the past..

I remembered first day I was here in Inti Nilai, I was so excited yet sad..

Excited that I finally can step in into a private college yet sad because leaving home far away..

The first day I was here, my mum and little brother booked a taxi and sent me here, helped me to clean my room, went to Giant for quick shopping and lunch..

And finally, when my mum and brother were about to leave, I cried..

I don’t want to be alone at here..

I don’t want to leave my mum..

I don’t want to leave the kingdom where I spent growing up..

My mum cried too..

I never leave her..

But I am grown..

I need to get further education..

And after the education, I need to get a work in big city..

I need to leave..

I remembered that I used half a year to get away from home sick, to get myself really adapted to new environment..

Now, 3 years in Inti..

Of course I miss my mum all the time, but it is not as worse as the first day I was here..

I called my mum daily and I went back hometown when I am free..

There is no turning back in our life..

I wish I can go back to high school where my home is only 10minutes ride away from school..

I wish I can go back to the time where I went back to home to see mummy waiting for me..

But I know these are all impossible..

Like I said, to leave is a stage everyone have to go through..

To leave for higher education and better job..

As I stepped into college life, I know it is impossible to see my family daily like I was in high school..

And I am aware that as time passes, there is lesser time I could spend with my family..

People close with me always ask me that why I always call my mum and why I always want to go back home..

My answer is always the same; if I don’t call her now, and I refuse to go back home, I will never have the chance to do these again once I stepped into work world or even when I am in my final year.. so I don’t want to regret for not doing these..

People learnt from past..

I didn’t appreciate the past where I had my mum 24 hours ready beside me but I shoved her away..

I didn’t appreciate the past when my daddy brought home my favourite fruits but I didn’t finished them..

And now, when I lost them, I start to know how to appreciate..

And now, whenever I still have the time, I will call and go back, appreciate ever single moment spent with my dearest family..

This is one of top in my most important list..

Life is short..

I just want to provide all of us series of good memories while we are all bond in the name of family J