If I want it I will go get it

I rarely update stuff in Facebook nowadays (and blog too :x sorry for the long hiatus) but today I was exceptionally boring that I updated the Facebook status twice. About going back hometown and cutting the hair short. 

For my last semester, I had pretty free lecture schedule where I do not have class on Friday and my Monday class started at 4pm. Thus since the first week of the semester I never failed to go back hometown every weekend. Back to hometown Raub on Friday morning and then to Nilai back on Monday morning. Today is Thursday and my class ended at 3pm. I thought of stick to the original routine to go back on Friday morning so I can stay to do bit of revision. Bullshit. I should have known myself well. Me doing revision when the test is two weeks ahead? C'mon. This is not me. And now regretted. Because I am mood-less to do anything at all in the hostel. Might as well go back hometown right? At least I get to eat good dinner lol. And when I regretted of not going back earlier; I decided that it was a bit too late to drive back at 7pm+. I always avoid driving at night due to my astigmatism. Then I just stick to regret-not-going-back-home mood for night, until I saw this..

This is how youngster is. Love to do insane stuff. Miss home out of sudden, then went back home. Today suddenly miss home much - now I am at home. Mama got surprised too. Haha

I just got speechless. Wtf was I thinking at the earlier of the day? My cousin was so right. You miss home, you go back now. She went back even for a day. Ok maybe a day plus. Went back hometown on Thursday evening and back to Nilai on Saturday morning for the part time job. Just because she missed home. Then why am I thinking so much? I want to go home - I will just go home now. 

Then another thing is the hair! I was thinking to chop it off to shoulder length. But then I am taking forever to make a decision T.T until I see this (below), at around the same time where I saw my cousin's status..

Where is the courage coming from?.... (I apologize that I am a banana the rest of the words are too hard for me to understand T.T)

Lemme present you the winner of Talent award for Asia Muse Search 2013 Miss Wei Chean. 

This is inspiration. I don't know why but this photo inspired me. Maybe because it was updated around the same time as the previous status, I felt inspired to just go with my feeling and cut my hair short. If I want short hair, then I will just go cut it short. Ok la maybe not as short as this. This is not shoulder length okay. 

I don't know why am I so afraid of doing things, and making new plan out of the old plan. I think too much of the consequences and outcomes, maybe? Maybe I should just get rid of the worry. The worry and stress will age people faster! We live just once. If I feel like doing it, I will just do it. As long as it didn't bring harm to me or people around me right? 

Like now, I feel like walking out to the convenient store for an ice-cream, and I will just go do it. I want the ice-cream and I will go get it. The consequences? Nah, I will jog two more laps tomorrow.