A Random One

Hey ya world..
I am extremely sorry the late update..
Well.. I was busy with works, assignments and tests.. then when free time, don't feel like updating because lazy..! :p
It is a random post today..
I should be studying by now..
13 days left to final and I didn't start on anything yet :(
Just could not put myself into the study mood..
Something bad happened lately..
And as usual I won't mention it over here..

Feeling and emotion is just something hard to be controlled..
You forced yourself to smile and study well, but somehow you can just stare at the same page for hours..
I was a simple yet happy girl..
As time passed, as I grown, everything changes..
No more innocence in my life, no more "I don't know"..
Everything, I have to know, I have to care..
Because they were all related to me and the people I love dearly..
Am trying very hard to stay strong.. be strong for them..
Not all I could help..
There is something that still have to be endured by own..
I will just pray that they will be strong as well..

So ignore the emo part of mine.. I am so sorry for the short emo babbles..
Guess I just can't help it but to spill out a bit.. =]
Now lets start with something random with me lately..

I am doing very well here, thank you :)
Except for the fact that I am super boring over here..
Most of the time, I don't feel like studying..
I will surf net, refreshing Facebook over and over again :p
And I will sit on the chair, staring the book and start daydreaming for hours..
Lol.. Can't all these be worst..?
As I mentioned earlier, I have only 13 days left to my final examination.. and I have six subjects with me..! :(
I am all stressed out, I am scared..
But I just don't know why I can't bring myself to study..
The books dislike me I guess :(
I wish to go back home, but between me and my boyfriend, we just can't find a matching time to go back together..
Plus actually mummy is coming over next week..! yay! :D
My cousin decided to study here, but she want to attend the Open Day, so my mummy has to accompany her and aunt over here..
And come to find me as well..! :)
How I miss my mummy..!
Then, I just decided not to go back, since it is actually around 2o days more before I can go back and enjoy my sem break..
So I will just be patient, and be a nerd in Inti for this few weeks..

And oh.. I found a new job..
It is a promoter under Epromode..
Average 4 to 6 working days in a month, depends on my supervisors..
If she calls, then I have extra income..
If no, I will just have to be a good girl staying in Inti or go back hometown..
Pretty good job with average income..
At least this will help me to cover my expenses, my pocket money is not that thick that it could cover all my needs and wants.. :p
I had already started to work.. only two events so far..
And after my final, I am going to be hardworking, take more events and earn more money..
It was tiring, it was hard..
But I just can't give up now..
I can't think of stopping..
I am not like my peers, who work to earn and save for a iphone5 or LV bag..
I work to earn and save for my dreams..
I got tons of dreams to be fulfilled :)
And my dreams, no they are ambitions; I am not going to reveal here..
Wait till I achieved it and my success can eventually say it out for me..
I believe in no words :)

And lately, I don't know why and how..
Somehow, I found myself do not believe in people easily..
Good or bad, I am also not sure myself..
Wish it is just not a bad thing.. I have got enough bad experiences..
And for the one I didn't believe in (of cause they don't know who they are :p ), I am so sorry for not putting in faith into you guys..
I was once a strong believer in friends and anything else..
But sometimes, putting in too much faith could cause yourself harmed..
But no worries.. not putting in faith does not mean I will not open my heart to it.. :)

Hmm.. can't think of anything to write anymore.. :p
Guess I will just have to stop it here..
And I am glad that blogger, once again has help me to relieve myself..
True, I didn't reveal anything here..
But writing out random stuff about myself is enough to help me to de-stress..
Thanks bloggie again! :D
At least I am not as emo as before =]
So time to have a nap *:p* and then turning on my nerdie mood..
Hopefully I would not get distracted by the fantastic daydreams of mine later..
Next update..?
Hopefully I will be able to update again in a week time..!
Till then, adios! :)