A, B, C or Pass?

RIP to my most hated subject, Corporate Finance.. I shall see you again in your next life.. Don't worry, it won't be long, the coming month I will stuck with you again for another 4 months.. Oh god..

I was in the middle of exam, but after done my killer papers and thinking that my next paper is at 5pm tomorrow, I shall relax and update myself a bit with my internet social life.. Check on facebook and blog of my friends.. Saw two of my friends, jesz and qin updated their blogs today, so I think it will be a good date for a blog session too.. lol.. the more the merrier.. >.<

Realized something that hit me hard in my face today..
I saw my friend's status and post, which shows that they care so much about their cgpa..
Grade of C or even B is enough to make them whining about how the low grade will pull down their cgpa.. Which this makes me feel very bad about myself.. I have very average result in my uni life, sometimes even lower than average when I had failed my papers several times before..
Of course, at the moment when I failed, I feel very bad and depressed.. Thinking of all the time wasted to study the subject but still fail at the end, thinking of the money spent to retake it, thinking of the poor cgpa and mostly, thinking of the journey of university life that will be prolonged just because I failed the papers..
I did improved.. Every time after I failed, I stood up strong again, retake the subject and pull up the grade back despite of how much I hate it..

However, there is still a thing that I never improve on.. I never have passion to get A in my university life.. Well, maybe in my foundation time, to get an A was still the goal..  But after stepping into degree, especially me in entering the last year, grade A is no longer the goal.. The goal? To only pass, of course.. For me, getting an A in degree is super hard, where it is almost impossible.. You should be happy when you can get a pass in degree life.. Only those kiasu people that just enter degree will still aim for A..

But now seems that I am wrong.. Somehow, when I browsed my friends' facebook page and blog, they are all mentioning their aim to get A in the final..
When one people told me that he wants to get A for his papers, I will think that this fella is just another kiasu people that are still new to degree.. an A in a degree life? How impossible is that..
But when there are 10 people saying the same thing?
It start to shake my original mindset that 'impossible to get A in degree'..
I doubt on my own ability and capability..
When only one can get A, he is just pure lucky or pure smart.. but when 10 people can get it..?
It is not pure lucky or pure smart anymore..
It is the effort you put in achieving a thing and the passion towards it..
Reflecting back on myself, I realized where is my mistake all the time..
I never get an A because I never aim for it.. I never believe in it.. I never believe in myself.. I never work hard towards it..
Work towards getting only pass and to get A is two different things.. and I never ever put enough effort for it..
How shameful is it when I only realize it now..
If this is the attitude I possessed towards my study since I stepped into my university life, there is probably only a year and half left to my graduation..
Feel shameful, feel bad and regret..

Thinking of today's papers, Financial Reporting, it is actually a good chance for me to grab an A for the very first time in my degree.. but it is me who take it for granted, not memorizing the format of account properly..
And my Corporate Finance paper, it will be another nightmare for me when I think that I have to retake the entire subject in coming sem..
The result is not out, in fact it was only 8 hours ago since I did that paper so it is not confirmed yet that I fail.. but I knew myself very well.. I knew what I was doing in the exam hall.. I never stop writing in the 2 hours period given but I know the standard of my answer.. They are not sufficient to pass.. But still, lets hope for a miracle to happen.. I want to proceed with my papers, not getting stuck with the same paper all over again..
When I was in exam hall, I did not have enough time to finish the paper..
For the last 10 minutes, my answer sheet is still blank for a question worth of 30 marks.. Mr Adrian was so happened to walk by me that time.. He saw my empty answer sheet, and then he looked at the clock, and look again at my answer sheet.. I was only just about to finish only one paragraph by that time.. I dare not to look into his face.. But I can somehow 'see' the disappointment in him.. It is already the last ten minutes, for a 30 marks question, and I was only at the first paragraph with only two lines of sentence..
Yeah I knew.. I can't help.. I was mad at myself too.. I felt like apologizing to Mr Adrian but to think back, it is useless..
What for apologizing to him..? It is me to suffer the consequences.. I should say sorry to myself.. Sorry for not realizing everything earlier..

If 10 of my friends can do it, and never say that getting an A is impossible, then why should I give up to get an A too? Why am I always at the negative thoughts when the positive one is just in front of me..?
I took everything for granted.. I remembered even getting a B for my English paper because I never put effort in it.. It was just English Language paper anyway.. But now, I want to change..
No more negative attitude.. no more giving up before trying.. I will take the past as lesson, a lesson that will motivate me in a way so that I can do better in my study..I am prepared to take the worst consequences for my final this time, but lets not look at the past anymore.. I had reflected myself on my past mistakes and this is time to change.. Lets have passion and goal towards the coming study sem.. Good luck =)

I still have two papers left, so better off to study now.. lets see if the last minute passion towards study and goal to get A will result in A or not =)
For friends who are having final, good luck guys =)
Fighting!

Hey yo~
Went to hiatus for sometimes again..
Well.. what to do.. a month before this, I was having this tonsillitis for a week plus..
And then the mid term break started..
And right after the break is the submission date for assignments and tests..
So the busy life continues till now.. no, in fact I am still busy..
But feel like updating the blog, so why don't take a break? =)

As I mentioned in previous post before, 111111 was my 3rd anniversary with bf =)
So at the day itself, we went to our favourite duck rice restaurant for lunch and then we headed to Tutti Frutti for desserts..
Believe me if you step into the duck rice restaurant, you don't feel like sitting there for long time and even to order for drinks
But I promised it serves the best duck rice ever!



We both decide to go simple with the celebration and the next day, we went to Sunway Pyramid..
Ahh.. how long was it since we went to shopping mall just to walk around?
Every time we went for an outing, it will have the 'official purpose' there..
Mostly because of his business or work or some other important stuff..
When he came fetch me, I gave him the presents that I last-minutely prepared lol..
Rushing here and there but still can't give it to him on the official day :(



All bought and prepared at very last minute..
The pillow was prepared a week before and the 'book' was prepared only few days before the day..
Diesel perfume, Bros tumbler and the Iko biscuits was bought a day before anniversary..
I had to make a big lie to him so that I can go to Jusco Seremban without getting suspected :p
For me, the most meaningful is the 'book' where the it had recorded our journey since the day we get together until now in the 25 pages of writing and pictures..
I was having hard time writing out all the moments as I have poor memory and lack of pictures describing the moments..
But still, all the hard works pay off as he told me, he didn't even know that we have been through that much to come to here, 111111 =)
Yeah.. I didn't realize it too.. until I force myself to recall each events and moments and editing pictures to complete the book for both of us..
We were both carried away by the hectic life and we tend to forget what we have been through to make who are we today, so it is good to actually have something that can remind us about the path that we had been through =)

I think I will withdraw back the statement that he didn't buy me anything for the anniversary..
He bought me a meal in Bubba Gump, few singlets from Forever21 and a bracelet from Kitschen



Three days after the day, there was another gathering with my jimui for the bleated birthday celebration for Ivy, Kyle and Arsh at Allegro Cafe..
Went out early on that day because bf had to go SS15 to apply for overseas universities..
At around 6pm, he dropped me at doink's house and there, SS session started :p



Around 8pm+, we went to Allegro Cafe =)
The first gathering since my birthday gathering at July..
We were all busy with studies and all of us came with the date after like almost 2 months of discussing the date to gather..
I am so sorry to the 3 birthday people as I didn't buy anything for them :(
Will buy them presents when I am free >.<
Nice decorations and excellent service at the cafe but too bad variety of foods is too little..
No photos taken from me *I want a good digital camera!* let's wait for the pro to upload the photos :p
And as usual, 2nd round was held at Taipei Taipei, a not bad place to hang around but I hate that they allow smoking in the air-cond room lol
But this time, due to most of us was busy with academic, only 5 attended the 2nd round - Lai, Jovey, Shereen, Thatcher and me
Not so perfect gathering at the time as most of us were busy but will look forward for another gathering for the December baby at year end, where everyone is free =)

Ok, that to head with my oh-so-busy life
Will update soon! =)

111111

Hey bloggie~
I am actually very busy now..
But thinking that today is a good day, so I decide to write even for a short post..

First of all, happy 111111 to all my readers! =)
It is a beautiful date today that happens only once in a thousand year and guess what, today is my 3rd anniversary too! =)

My bf and I started our relationship at 11.11.08 and throughout this 3 years, we have been through a lot, happy and conflicts..
And I am more than glad that we didn't give up on each other, still hanging on each other, making our way to another year of anniversary..
So how did we celebrate our very special 3rd anniversary?
Simple enough, we had lunch at our most favourite duck rice restaurant and we shared a cup of Trutti Frutti =)
And that's for the celebration..
Hmm.. maybe it is not the end there, since we are going to shopping mall tomorrow just to walk around, date around and chill around =)
I would not really call it as a 'anniversary date'.. because it was just normal window shopping there and here..
For the first time in any important event involving me, he didn't get me any presents, which I am glad for it..
I had receive lots of things from him, yet I never get to give..
So it is actually not bad not receiving any present from your love one during the anniversary =)
But this time, I got him something =)
And actually now I am still rushing it for him..
Last minute work =(
Ehem ehem.. hint is already given here.. *it is a hand-made gift* :p
Picture will not be shown out for now..
He will be the first to see the gifts before anyone else =)
And I am lucky that he didn't check on my blog, lol..

So today, everyone is talking about 111111 and everyone make a wish on it since it only happens once in a thousand year..
My wish?
Remains unchanged and simple..
I wish that everyone I love will stay happy and healthy, including myself =)
Love here does not refer only to romance love..
My definition towards love is much more broader than that..
It includes family love, friends love and any other kind of 'love' you can think of =)
I love my mummy daddy, my little bro..
I love my hometown jimui that grow up together with me..
I love my classmates that sit together with me for hours to complete the assignment..
To people I love, you should know who you are! Please be healthy and happy always!
I am always wishing for your happiness and health! =)

Talking about 111111, I somehow think that I got some "fate" with these numbers?
Like whenever I look at the time in my car, my smartphone, my laptop, almost all the time it will show 11.11am, 11.11pm, 1.11am or 1.11pm..
Of course the digital clock is running and they show some other time too, but I always get to "bump" in with the 11.11 or 1.11
How weird it is right..?
Is there any lottery that I can buy with the number of 1111?
I will like to see if the numbers bring any luck, lol..

Hmm.. guess I will end it here, I am rushing to publish this post before clock strikes 12am :p
What, it was a wonderful day today and I want make my post wonderful too, lol~
And I need to keep rushing to finish the gift so I can present it to him right after he is awake tomorrow! :D
Until then, tata world!

Happy 111111 ! =)

Pencils

Pencils..
No wait, in more accurate terms, lousy pencils and mechanical pencils..
How many do you still keep or use pencils..?
How many of you have come across a China brand lousy mechanical pencil but still keep it..?
I do..

People asked me why I still keep all the trash..
I replied that they are still usable, so don't waste it..
A part of the answer is true..
Another part is I am addicted to break pencils or mechanical pencils into half when I got angry..



Scientific explanation behind all these..?
Well, I don't know..
It is just..
Imagine the pencil is the people that make you angry, turn your sunny day with birds chirping into a stormy day..
And then you can grab it in your hand, and break it into half..like in real life you can kung fu the ass of that bastard that ruin your day..
And your anger may just dissapear after you break that cheap, lousy pencils that may not even cost a ringgit..
Do the calculation. And you will find that it is super worth it =)

Mechanical pencil is the best..
Because it was made from plastic, and sometimes, it is hard to break it into half..
Thus, I will concentrate all my 'energy' to break one mechanical pencil, and then I will get satisfied..
Cheap, how much will a China mechanical pencil cost..?

Pencil will do too..
But pencil was made from lead and wood, and it is too easy to be broken into half..
Thus, I will need to break more than one pencil to calm myself down..
Super cheap, yes I need more than one, but they were all cheap stuff..

People said that I do not know how to handle my stress..
I, being snobbish, never admit it..
Come one..
When I am in stress, I just need few minutes to cry out, few pencils, or an ice-cream to chill myself..
Back and forth, all the process may not even take half an hour..
I did not blow out my anger on anyone else, expect for my pencils..
That is good enough already right?

And don't tell me that I do not know how to control my emotion, aka my anger..
I had kept the mechanical pencil shown in above picture for almost two years..
I, being snobbish again, have pretty good temper and patient..

So yeah, what is your ways of controlling or releasing your anger? =)

Back on blog

Hey yo readers!
Went to hiatus for some time xD
Thanks to my princess life again plus another new sem had just started..
I am just too lazy to update this bloggie but still, I have to finish this entry so I can post new entry..
So now is the time to update this bloggie a bit.. everything will just be brief, since it is a very long gap between this post and the previous one..
Lets start updating from the previous blog..

25th July to 27th July
Three days of final..
Three papers, three days..
Suffer a lot during the three days, since subjects I took are all core subjects..
But the happy news is, I passed! =D

28th July
My big day!
Have a post birthday celebration with all my belated jimui at Frames, Sunway Pyramid..
Oh boy.. it will be a very long post for this.. =)
So that day I went to Pyramid earlier to meet up with my very best pal, Ivy for a walk..
Ivy brought her *ehem* escort too xD
But ended up bought nothing cause already in deep red =(
And walk not much too.. *stupid high heels*
My happiest moment, is when watching my friends come over walking towards me one by one =')
Such a long time we don't have big biggie gathering like this..
And they all came because of me having my 21st birthday dinner =) i love you girls
So when half of the people is there, we went into Frames..
Very small restaurant yet beautifully decorated..
Once we sat down, we just keep chit chatting until forget ordering..
The waiter have to wait there and finally I think he fed up waiting for us, so he asked for us to order first before continue with our chit chatting =p
Have happy moments chewing good food, and having quality time with jimui =)

So these are the photos taken by me..
More photos on facebook ;)
For our group, having 2nd round is an usual tradition..
So after Frames, they planned to go Opera since it was only opposite Frames and it was Lady Night that day!
Omg! My 'virginity' to club! xD
But luckily at last they changed their mind and we went to Murni SS2 for a tea session =p
My virginity to club still here teehee! =)
Only Thatcher knows how to go Murni so she be the leader lead us to there..
Thatcher parked her car at CP7, mine at CP6 and Charlie's at CP5..
So she drive down and lead us one by one to Murni haha..
So the chat session continue there..
Around 1am+, we all went back..
Still thanks girls for coming, some coming after work and some coming right after class..
I appreciated it a lot..
And so now, pressie time!! xD

First pressie received is from Jesz and Charlie..
A pinkie tumbler!
Just nice since I wanted to find a new one replacing my mine tupperware tumbler! =)
And now I get it as my birthday gift! =)
Thanks Jesz and Charlie!

And next is Paris Hilton purse from Jovey and Alven..
Ahh.. what can I say..
Thanks so much girl.. =)
But feel a little uneasy to use it, since I scared I will dirty it..
All purse or bag which is at my hand will get dirtied, regardless white or dark in color =(

A necklace from Ivy, Jian Qin and Ah Lai..
It is a R pendant there too! =)
Oh my oh my..
First present received which symbolize myself ;)
Thanks so much..
I had a similar necklace before, but the R is broken =(
But now I got a new one yay! =)

A chocolate from Ivy's *escort*
Ohh.. he is the least expected to give me a gift!
Since I knew him only on that day!
But he knew about me a lot, thanks to Ivy =.=
And vy-vy, don't you dare to dump him, I like this boyfriend of yours :p
And I finished the chocolate on the night itself xD
What, no fridge in my hostel, me being nice and scare it melted and it will then wasted the chocolate so I finish it as soon as possible =P

This color make up set is from Thatcher, Shereen, Mei and ah dear CCT!
I love it a lot!
Bet it is either Sher or Cher who picked it for me :)
Now I have more choice of color when come to paint my eyelids now muahaha =)

And this cute puppy doll is from Wen Man..
Aww.. I miss her a lot!
Like ages since I last saw her =)
This puppy doll is actually roll paper holder..
Lol cute right..
Something funny with Man that day..
She rushed to Frames right after work..
And being polite, she called me to inform that she will be late..

Man : 啊林，我刚放工。现在traffic jam。。*and blahblahblah, I can't remember*
Me : 那你是不到还是迟到？*in heart praying that she will come*
Man : 哎呀！我当然会来啦，是迟到而已。

Lol.. kinda funny that time, I was so scared that she will give up coming since she is stuck in the traffic jam
Thats for the day.. =)

30th July
Back to Raub to enjoy my princess life!
First two weeks I was enjoying myself in home with all the HK movies and unlimited internet speed and then for the rest of my 'holiday', I have to help my mom out at her shop lol

8th to 12th August
I was at Kuantan at that time for some training related to my mom's work..
No one is going so I am the best candidate -.-
Thought it will be super boring but people there is friendly!
I love them a lot =)
Not to mention the food too!

The people I met and lots of yummy food I had there! =)

19th August 2011
Bf came to my hometown..
And I celebrated his birthday although it had been a past..
His birthday fall on 13th August but I am not there to celebrate with him =(
In fact he said no one celebrated with him =(
His 21st birthday is like other ordinary days..
I am so sorry that I am not celebrating with you, not even preparing a gift for you..
I felt bad..
My fault on never plan things well and never save ahead =(
Anyway, I bought a cake for him but no birthday song was sang and no candle-blowing..
He said that it is not good to blow candle after one's birthday..
Even you want give him a gift, you must not mention that the gift is for the birthday..

The birthday cake for him. I can't even prepare a nice looking cake for him =(

23th to 24th August
Back to INTI just for the enrollment..
Stupid INTI does not have online enrollment system, making me drive 2.5 hours back just to enroll..
Not attending any class, since it was only the first week and the next week is holiday due to Raya, so I just went back the next day..

2th September
A bbq party at jesz's house!
For gathering and moon cake festival..
Have great fun and laughter that night..
Being with you girls is the happiest moment..
The feeling is different when we have all sort of gathering in the fancy restaurants..
At home, we can dress as simple as we want, shout at each other and running there and here like children =)

All of us. Oh wait, Charlie was not in, he was the photographer haha. Picture stolen from onlyjesz.blogspot.com =)

5th September
Mom's birthday! =)
Bf was there to celebrate it with us
He even cooked us western style dinner as celebration dinner and I forget to take picture for the delicious dinner -.-
Mom was surprised, because she thought we forgot bout her birthday!
Lol it was all part of plan :p
No pressie for mom, cause in deep red =(
Mummy, I will buy you a new bag for Christmas pressie!

Want to know what's wrong with the birthday cake? My bro took it out from fridge and don't know why it fell down from his grip. And this is what the cake looks like =.=

6th September
Back to INTI.. holiday ended just like that >.<
I want back my princess life!
And so, busy life started..

14th September
My jimui Jovey's birthday dinner celebration!
Happy birthday Jovey =D
Felt proud of myself that day, cause I went to Doink's house alone, although get lost in the journey and need them to come out and guide me =.=
But still, now I know how to go her house next time..
And we went to a Mexican restaurant, Las Carretas..
Nice food there whey!

Most photos are from onlyjesz.blogspot.com

I don't have a good camera like she have, or her bf have =( I want one too..

21st September
Something important happened..
But I am not sure whether I should talk bout it at public..
Perhaps I should keep to myself first and will talk about it when the time comes =)

26th September
Went to Sunway Pyramid with bf, Poon and Hazel to celebrate her birthday
Happy birthday Poon!
So many people birthday in this entry -.-
Went to Tony Roma to have dinner, second time here =)
After dinner we went for movie, Johnny English Reborn
Haha my beloved Mr Bean =)




So that's what happen until now..
Such a long entry here, hope readers don't mind..
It is already short for a single post that cramps all the things happened in few months kay?
This few weekend I kept going back hometown, because bf brought his car back to overhaul..
It is cheaper back in my hometown..
So we kept going to and fro to hometown to check out the car, to send the car to another mechanic after the previous one is done..
And to think I will post a bit of the car's photos after it was all done..
Another month to go for the reborn of bf's baby =D

Nothing special happen..
Just becoming nerd Ruby again..
Will continue study after this post..
It is quite hard to adapt into nerd mode again after a month holiday =(
Anyway, wish myself luck!
Aka aka fighting!!
Will update soon! ;)

Birthday

I am officially 21!
Happy 21st to me! =)
So how is my birthday..?

My birthday fall on my busiest week in Inti =(
So I had no big biggie celebration for it.. =(
There goes my 21st birthday..
Just a simple dinner with boyfriend at Pizza Hut and a mini sized cake from King's Bakery..
I actually do not mind of the celebration..
But now looking back at my college mates that have a huge wedding-like birthday party and a huge key-shaped cake, limlim's envious is in the air~~
Lol..
But anyway, I am actually happy..
I got around 100 wishes on facebook and my friends call and text me to wish me happy birthday..
Not to mention those who wish me face to face =)
I am happy, thanks all who wished me =)
And I got lotsa birthday present for this year..
All because of I am 21 this year
Can I be 21 every year so I can have this unlimited happiness? :p
Here comes the snaps for my birthday present =)

This is a key necklace from mummy!!
I love you mummy!
Yes, I am wearing the necklace when I snap this picture!
Am just too lazy to take out the necklace and snap it and then wear it back..
So there was it, I snapped it when wearing it :p
Beautiful skin complexion I have, yea.. hahax!
Well I guess I am the special one because I have two keys..!
Thanks to the uncle 'forcing' my mum to get two keys for me -.-

This is a dress given by Lai Kuan
Actually this is given few weeks before my birthday..
I went to Lai Kuan's room to chat with her and then when I saw this dress and I said it is pretty, she gave it to me..
Felt very uneasy to accept it..
But she insists..
She said she bought it for fun and later then, she realize that there is no occasion that she can wear this dress out..
So it had been long time in her closet before she gave it to me..
We had time pushing the dress to and fro between us because I just can't find a reason why I should accept it..!
And then she said take it as my last year's birthday present..
Lol..
At last, I took the dress.. and I took it as my current year's birthday present..
Quite happy because I was searching for a dress that time! for my birthday dinner!
And my wish is granted, just like that! =)
When it is my birthday, she came to my room, bringing two bags in as my birthday present!

This time, she said she bought them online because they were cheap yet just nice to be given out as presents to friends..
And coincidentally, it was my birthday when she got this bags..
And she just gave it to me..
Thanks a lot girl =)

This is a present from me to myself :p
It had been so long since I spent money for myself, so I thought of pampering myself on my 21st :p
Heels!!
My favorite! =)
And it is purposely bought to match the dress and for my birthday dinner! yay!!

Samsung Galaxy S 2!
A present from boyfriend!
Well.. what else I can say for this..?
Thanks so much dear.. =)
I love it a lot..
My first smart phone and I think will be the last ><
I will never ever spend so much on a phone..
Unless there is another smart phone as present for coming years :p

Wishes from friends at Facebook!
Can't print screen all of them, too many :p
But I do remember =)
Thanks a lot guys..
Really made my days..

Not to forget my friends who called and sms me..
Thanks so much..
Realize there is foreign number in my phone? =)

So that's all about my birthday..
I am waiting for the post-birthday dinner at 28/7 with my girls..!
Miss them a lot..
Have been calculating for the days.. haha

I am a grown girl now..
Have to be mature..
Have to think things ahead..
No more cute acting.. haha

So that's all about my birthday..
Simple enough, yet I am happy with it =)

Bingo

Went to buy newspaper this morning..
Saw the aunt at the newspaper stall playing this Bingo game with another aunt that sit behind her at the coffee shop..
There is quite a distance between them, so they just shout out the number loudly without even looking at each other..
I smiled ghostly at the aunt..
It might sound stupid and silly for some people..
But for me, this sounds like 'home'..
My home, my village..
Kampung Sempalit, Raub, Pahang
And this is how village people acts like :]