we're gonna say goodbye

First official post at the new year of 2012! The previous one didn't count, as it was a review post for what I had done for year 2011. Boring life as usual, LOL. I was pretty unmotivated plus lazy to update my blog but the only reason that motivate me to update it is that I need space for my coming post. I am going to my Jimui Doink's birthday dinner later (18th Jan) so I am gonna blog about it, hopefully by this Friday. And I am going to have interesting Chinese New Year ^^ so I am gonna need lotsa space to blog about it. And I am slightly very annoyed by my previous blog style, where I will cramp all the stuff I wanna blog about in only one post. And then I will like "1st Jan : blah blah blah happened", "5th Jan : blah blah blah happened" and so on. Took me hell lot of time to prepare that one single post and it might annoyed you as well. So I decided to just take off my lazy ass of the bed and update my blog on time, or after single event happened.

So let me started with my as-usual-boring life since the new year started. I had actually made new year resolutions and one of them is to make my life interesting. Interesting as in I mix around with more uni friends and get more social life. But until now, still, my life is as boring as usual. Like now, they are having INTI China Town just outside my block and I am typing a blog post in my room T__T Reasons are
1) I don't have friends to walk out with me. No, it is enough for me to be forever alone in my room, I don't want be forever alone out there too T__T
2) It will make me home sick more. I hate Nilai for not having CNY mood/spirit all around here. I miss the CNY spirit back in my hometown Sempalit or even the spirit in shopping malls like Pavilion. Felt like skipping all the classes and go back to where I belong now!
3) The event is simply boring. Is it not like I never attend event like that before. It is all the same with previous year one. All the same food and drink stalls out there and MC try to bring out the heat out of the crowd -.-
So yeah. Another fail resolution? We can't decide it too fast, after all, it is only the 18th days after new year started.

So lets get into the main topic of the post ^^ Before that, yes, I am fine here except that I miss my home dearly. I wish time can be fast forward so it is CNY now. Random pictures about what I did back in hometown during holidays.

When my mum is busy, I will automatically went to her working place to help her out. I am week in selling because I refused to memorize the cost price and selling price of each item, which will ease a lot when customer asked for discount, but it will take up lot of space of my memory LOL. But I am pretty good in settling paperwork tho =)

Or else I will stay at home, cleaned the home for CNY. Yeah, Happy Tupperwares Day. Mum will use lots of Tupperwares when CNY so I being a good daughter helped her to clean them all so she can use it when in need.

School started on 9th Jan. Went back to The Jungle INTI on 8th. Get enrolled on first day of class.

This is just to show off my patience. How many of you will wait if your turn is like at gap of 100++ 172 away? Me did. I took the Q-number for the payment, feeling like killing INTI for its slow work, went out the enrollment hall to buy ice-cream, went back to hall and sit for 2 hours until it was my turn and it turned up I did not have to pay a single cent as it was already covered by PTPTN. So nice, I love myself for my patience =)

From back in INTI untill today, I was busy with my bf's application to go overseas and settling his stuff here. He was going to and fro between KL and Nilai to settle his application these two weeks. Talk about last minute, he was practically settling his going to overseas stuff seriously only in these two weeks. And I, being a very good gf *shameless again* had to accompany him to run to and fro between my uni and KL. Every single day after the sem started, we will go out. To Subang, where his agent at, or to Shah Alam where he temporary stay at or to Seremban to settle business related stuff or even to the shopping malls where he had promised his friends for meals for his farewell. He even went back to his hometown at Ipoh for few days to settle his family stuff but I was not following for the trip. Crazy ar, I still have my class going on here one ne. So I was practically not at Nilai most of the time because of these. Sometimes I even stay overnight at his guardian's house at Shah Alam because I was too tired to drive back Nilai.

 For this two weeks, this little bag had been my good traveling buddy. It is just nice to stuff in your stuff for a one night trip. Every time we went out to KL, I made sure that I had bring my traveling essentials along, in case I am too tired to drive back to Nilai and had to stay at aunt's (bf's guardian) house. And she is always nice enough to provide me a spacious guest room =)

 My traveling essentials =) This had remind me of about two years ago, of how am I am trained to pack stuff within 5 minutes for emergency business meeting for days at outstation. I am kind of miss that kind of lifestyle now =) where you are always rush to here and there for the business, like a real corporate woman :p

Nothing to be highlighted for the to and fro trip. Nothing special about it also. They were just all me or him drive from Nilai to Subang to find his agent to submit forms and discuss about the universities, then we drove back Nilai. Except that you all want another piece of grandma story telling how I spent my time day by day. Believe me that I kept track of my journey in my organizer planner, but you will not want to listen read all those. Spent a lot on tolls, petrol and having meals outside though T__T I am gonna eat bread to survive this month. A thing that I would like to highlight is that we went for Jogoya and Pavillion on 14th Jan with his friend! ^^ Got a meal of free Jogoya yeah! But I don't like going buffet with him and will never go to buffet with him. He will keep nagging me about how much I had eaten, and how fat I am. Seriously, my jimui that read this, I miss Jogoya session with you girls! <3

Favorite in Jogoya. I love soup a lot!

Wasabi battle between bf and me. Friend refuse to join. It is obvious that I lose, right? I can't chew it even for once. 

Self-invented waffle + ice cream! Yum yum

So after 3 hours of sitting and chewing *ahem* in Jogoya, we went to Farenheit. Nothing much there, plus the stuff sold there was pretty expensive. I was betting that the rental there is expensive because the price of stuff sold there was not in a line with the quality. Totally did not worth it. Only attraction for me is the Carlo Rino boutique. Lots of stock there LOL And the next destination is Pavillion :D CNY spirit is everywhere in there!

Look at the dragon! So gigantic!

When we was roaming around Starhill, Sephora, Farenheit and Pavillion, I felt very happy at the view. Lots of people were going in and out around the shopping malls. Bf describe the situation is something like they had in Japan, where lots of people were walking here and there, and they waited patiently for the light to turn green at T-junction before continuing their journey to next destination. I agreed with his explanation, of course eliminate the view where lorries simply park at side of road to unload the stuff LOL The view is total beauty. The people make the view at the T-junction looks so merry and pretty. And with all the shopping malls having red red decorations, it lit up the CNY spirit to the max! I always hate to visit Pavillion because the area there was 24/7 having massive traffic jam and I hate to visit shopping malls during weekend, it makes the traffic worse plus there were lots of people inside that you don't even feel like walking in. But this time, I am happy to see another side of the busy-ness of the crowd in the city. It does not feel that bad after all. Eliminate the stupid cars parked at random places and the safety of your belongings ( LOL - because bf keep remind me to take good care of my bag and S2 that time -.- ), it actually feels like the merry crowd in Japan =)

So yeah, everything was settled yesterday and he had already went back to his hometown for CNY and wait for his oversea university approval, me driving him to train station earlier. At first, I felt nothing. It was just a break between us. It is not like we never had a break before when I went back to my hometown and he went back to his. I was still blur and did not know what's in front of me. He almost teared up, saying that this will be the last time I saw him. He will be going overseas for at least one year and half. That is the at least. It might take two years or even three years. His application haven't been approved so we don't know they duration he will take to complete degree oversea. We don't know when is he leaving. I just know that he will leave soon, as soon as the end of the month or the latest by June, but that was unlikely to happen. He is not willing to wait until June. We don't even know to which country he is going, it is either Australia or England. Yeah, I am gonna eat bread in INTI for whole year if I want to visit those places him. We were both pursuing in INTI and we met each other almost daily, even for that half an hour for lunch. He had leave me for a whole month vacation at Australia and month of vacation at China before, I was really okey with those but this will be the first time we will not see each others for years. I had mentally prepared myself for this, I knew he will further study at oversea anytime or sooner. But still I can't hold back tears too when he told me that. I then promised to send him off at airport. It was my initial plan, it is just that I didn't tell him before.

So yeah, now in INTI, I am forever alone again. I don't have much friends here because of my introvert personality. Don't accuse me that I am not having friends here because I stick with my bf 24/7, you don't know me. I am forever alone even before we knew each other. And now I will back to square one, to my old life where I walk to class alone, eat in room alone and doing all sort of stuff alone. As I said, I am prepared for this, but it will take some time for me to adjust back to my forever alone life. Yeah, I can do it I knew it.

So that's all for the blog post this time. The next post should be about my Jimui Thatcher aka Doink birthday dinner celebration. Doink, if you are reading this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I LOVE YOU!

 

Muahhahahaha! You didn't expect to see this right? I was browsing for a picture between you and me just for this post and I found this! Your current picture is lot prettier but it is ok, I ugly together with you :P

Happy birthday to you again! =)

First official post at the new year of 2012! The previous one didn't count, as it was a review post for what I had done for year 2011. Boring life as usual, LOL. I was pretty unmotivated plus lazy to update my blog but the only reason that motivate me to update it is that I need space for my coming post. I am going to my Jimui Doink's birthday dinner tomorrow (18th Jan) so I am gonna blog about it, hopefully by this Friday. And I am going to have interesting Chinese New Year ^^ so I am gonna need lotsa space to blog about it. And I am slightly very annoyed by my previous blog style, where I will cramp all the stuff I wanna blog about in only one post. And then I will like "1st Jan : blah blah blah happened", "5th Jan : blah blah blah happened" and so on. Took me hell lot of time to prepare that one single post and it might annoyed you as well. So I decided to just take off my lazy chair of the bed and update my blog on time, or after single event happened.

So let me started with my as-usual-boring life since the new year started. I had actually made new year resolutions and one of them is to make my life interesting. Interesting as in I mix around with more uni friends and get more social life. But until now, still, my life is as boring as usual. Like now, they are having INTI China Town just outside my block and I am typing a blog post in my room T__T Reasons are
1) I don't have friends to walk out with me. No, it is enough for me to be forever alone in my room, I don't want be forever alone out there too T__T
2) It will make me home sick more. I hate Nilai for not having CNY mood/spirit all around here. I miss the CNY spirit back in my hometown Sempalit or even the spirit in shopping malls like Pavilion. Felt like skipping all the class and go back to where I belong now!
3) The event is simply boring. Is it not like I never attend event like that before. It is all the same with previous year one. All the same food and drink stalls out there and MC try to bring out the heat out of the crowd -.-
So yeah. Another fail resolution? We can't decide it too fast, after all, it is only the 17th days after new year started.

So lets get into the main topic of the post ^^ Before that, yes, I am fine here except that I miss my home dearly. I wish time can be fast forward so it is CNY now. Random pictures about what I did back in hometown during holidays.

 When my mum is busy, I will automatically went to her working place to help her out. I am weak in sales because I always refuse to memorize the cost price and selling price, took up too much of my memory space. I am good in paperwork tho =)

Or else I will stay at home, cleaned the home for CNY. Yeah, Happy Tupperwares Day. Mum will use lots of Tupperwares for CNY so I being good daughter cleaned it for her.


School started on 9th Jan. Went back to The Jungle INTI on 8th. Get enrolled on first day of class.

This is just to show off my patience. How many of you will wait if your turn is like at gap of 100++ 172 away? Me did. I took the Q-number for the payment, feeling like killing INTI for its slow work, went out the enrollment hall to buy ice-cream, went back to hall and sit for 2 hours until it was my turn and it turned up I did not have to pay a single cent as it was already covered by PTPTN =) So nice, I love myself for my patience


From back in INTI untill today, I was busy with my bf's application to go overseas and settling his stuff here. He was going to and fro between KL and Nilai to settle his application these two weeks. Talk about last minute, he was practically settling his going to overseas stuff seriously only in these two weeks. And I, being a very good gf *shameless again* had to accompany him to run to and fro between my uni and KL. Every single day after the sem started, we will go out. To Subang, where his agent at, or to Shah Alam where he temporary stay at or to Seremban to settle business related stuff or even to the shopping malls where he had promised his friends for meals for his farewell. He even went back to his hometown at Ipoh for few days to settle his family stuff but I was not following for the trip. Crazy ar, I still have my class going on here one ne. So I was practically not at Nilai most of the time because of these. Sometimes I even stay overnight at his guardian's house at Shah Alam because I was too tired to drive back Nilai.

Nothing to be highlighted for the to and fro trip. Nothing special about it also. They were just all me or him drive from Nilai to Subang to find his agent to submit forms and discuss about the universities, then we drove back Nilai. Except that you all want another piece of grandma story telling how I spent my time day by day. Believe me that I kept track of my journey in my organizer planner, but you will not want to listen read all those. Spent a lot on tolls, petrol and having meals outside though T__T I am gonna eat bread to survive this month. A thing that I would like to highlight is that we went for Jogoya and Pavillion on 14th Jan with his friend! ^^ Got a meal of free Jogoya yeah! But I don't like going buffer with him and will never go to buffet with him. He will keep nagging me about how much I had eaten, and how fat I am. Seriously my jimui that read this, I miss Jogoya session with you girls! <3

Favourite in Jogoya. I love soup a lot!

Wasabi battle between bf and me. Friend refuse to join. It is obvious that I lose, right? I can't chew it even for once. 

Self-invented waffle + ice cream! Yum yum


So after 3 hours of sitting and chewing *ahem* in Jogoya, we went to Farenheit. Nothing much there, plus the stuff sold there was pretty expensive. I was betting that the rental there is expensive because the price of stuff sold there was not in a line with the quality. Totally did not worth it. Only attraction for me is the Carlo Rino boutique. Lots of stock there LOL And the next destination is Pavillion :D CNY spirit is everywhere in there!

Look at the dragon! So gigantic!

When we was roaming around Starhill, Sephora, Farenheit and Pavillion, I felt very happy at the view. Lots of people were going in and out around the shopping malls. Bf describe the situation is something like they had in Japan, where lots of people were walking here and there, and they waited patiently for the light to turn green at T-junction before continuing their journey to next destination. I agreed with his explanation, of course eliminate the view where lorries simply park at side of road to unload the stuff LOL The view is total beauty. The people make the view at the T-junction looks so merry and pretty. And with all the shopping malls having red red decorations, it lit up the CNY spirit to the max! I always hate to visit Pavillion because the area there was 24/7 having massive traffic jam and I hate to visit shopping malls during weekend, it makes the traffic worse plus there were lots of people inside that you don't even feel like walking in. But this time, I am happy to see another side of the busyness of the crowd in the city. It does not feel that bad after all. Eliminate the stupid cars parked at random places and the safety of your belongings ( LOL - because bf keep remind me to take good care of my bag and S2 that time -.- ), it actually feels like the merry crowd in Japan =)


So yeah, everything was settled yesterday and he had already went back to his hometown for CNY and wait for his oversea university approval, me driving him to train station earlier. At first, I felt nothing. It was just a break between us. It is not like we never had a break before when I went back to my hometown and he went back to his. I was still blur and did not know what's in front of me. He almost teared up, saying that this will be the last time I saw him. He will be going overseas for at least one year and half. That is the at least. It might take two years or even three years. His application haven't been approved so we don't know they duration he will take to complete degree oversea. We don't know when is he leaving. I just know that he will leave soon, as soon as the end of the month or the latest by June, but that was unlikely to happen. He is not willing to wait until June. We don't even know to which country he is going, it is either Australia or England. Yeah, I am gonna eat bread in INTI for whole year if I want to visit those places him. We were both pursuing in INTI and we met each other almost daily. He had leave me for a whole month vacation at Australia and month of vacation at China before, I was okey with those but this will be the first time we will not see each others for years. I had mentally prepared myself for this, I knew he will further study at oversea anytime or sooner. But still I can't hold back tears too when he told me that. I then promised to send him off at airport. It was my initial plan, it is just that I didn't tell him before.

End of 2011

Hey peeps!
Long hiatus again, I knew..
I am a bit late but still I wanted to do a review about 2011. I had never done it before but I am gonna give it a try since I saw my friends was having fun doing this. Not all recalled since I have super poor memory, but still challenge accepted! :p So lets begin with the review. And if there is photo attached under each month, that will be the photo of the month that I loved most =)


January
:: The beginning of the year
:: Made new year resolution to read all self help book and slim down. First resolution failed T_T and the second one only lasted till mid of the year T_T
:: Another sem started
:: Was in good term with Xiao Wee and Flo as we took the same class and subjects. They were my classroom sista that moment =)
:: Jimui Doink birthday dinner took place at Look-Out-Point, but too bad I could not attend =(

 

Classroom sista Xwee and Flo =) I miss you girls now T.T

February
:: Happiest month of year 2011
:: The month where CNY took place. I still remembered how I countdown the day to CNY that time.
:: CNY for bunny year was short, but it was greatly utilized with my loved one. For event in details, may refer back to post titled The Happening.
:: First year where relatives of father side come staying at my house, I had to give out my room T_T
:: Got a watch and ring for Valentine
:: Inspired by all the beauty and fashion blogs I read, I started to share some stuff about beauty too, but it stopped there. Main reason is that I felt so low about myself that I think I am not 'qualified' to talk something about fashion and beauty stuff. *extreme low self confidence*

 Picture I loved most for the bunny year. It was taken at the last gathering we all had for the CNY

March
:: Accepted my first job under Epromode. Cried at the first day of work due to stress. 
:: Jimui Jesz birthday dinner took place at The CookBook, Sunway Giza.

 Jesz birthday dinner

April
:: Peak month of the sem
:: Mum comes to visit at Nilai, along with aunt and cousin. Cousin is going to study at INTI.

I am still working under Epromode at the month so I just uploaded a photo of myself while working.


May
:: Final exam and another beginning of the sem took place at this month. It was a short sem and I love short sem so much. You have to deal with everything, including subjects you hate just in 2 months. It was a lot better than dealing with them at long sem for 4 months plus.

June
:: Grandma remembrance day. I kept track of her remembrance day every year using the chinese lunar calendar. It was on the fifth month and seventh day of the lunar calendar. And when it was converted back, it fell on 8th June 2011.
:: Mum went to a trip at Thailand. She was so happy to see me in airport to send her off =) mum, it was only 20minutes drive from my place. I am a really bad daughter if I didn't send you off.

 Grandma. My first time revealing her picture in public.

July
:: 21st birthday fell on the busiest week of the sem. I intended to celebrate it with my old classmate too, but due to the packed schedule, I canceled it off =( celebration was simple enough, just birthday dinner with bf and gathering with jimui. But because I am 21, I got lotsa presents from all my loved =(
:: Jimui Sher birthday dinner on 26th July but I could not attend because having final paper the next day. My birthday gathering was on 28th July, held at The Frames, Sunway and it was attended by 13 beautiful peoples =)

 My birthday cake for my 21st =)

August
:: Went to Kuantan on behalf of mum for training. Met lots of beautiful people there, not to mention the food too. Will take up the training again in future if there is the opportunity =)
:: Bf birthday on 13th. Have a little conflict just an hour before the clock strikes 12am, ended up didn't wish him birthday on time. Have belated birthday celebration for him.

 Beautiful people from Kuantan

September
:: Jimui held bbq party on 2th to celebrate mooncake festival at Jesz's house. Had lots of fun with them =)
:: Mum's birthday on 5th. Celebration was simple with home cooked western style dinner and a cake from Secret Recipe.
:: Jimui Jovey birthday dinner celebration on 14th. Had dinner at Las Carretas, Taipan. First time having Mexican food and fell in love with it =)
:: Celebrated Poon birthday at Tony Roma, Sunway Pyramid. First time celebrating college friend birthday.

 All the smiley face at the bbq party

October
:: The birthday month where lots of my jimui's birthday fell on this month. Happy birthday to Jimui Kyle, Siew Yoke, Arsh and Ivy =) but the celebration took place at the next month due to busy schedule of all.
:: Involved in a business dealing which requires me to be the middleman. Kind of proud of myself when I can actually contribute to the success of the dealing. *shameless*
:: Had tonsillitis and that lasted for a week plus. Suffered during that time. Vowed to take good care of my health and wear mask when taking on public transport -.-

 RM500+ spent on the medicine and treatment and doctor consultations for my tonsillitis. Must take good care of myself in future so I won't got it again.

November
:: Everyone was talking about 111111. And my third anniversary with bf fell on that day. Had simple lunch on the exact date and went to Sunway at the next day for celebration.
:: Birthday celebration for Jimui Kyle, Arsh and Ivy on 15th. First time ever I didn't put effort in dolling myself for celebration and to buy present for the birthday people due to busy schedule of mine.
:: Not to forget Shin's birthday on 25th. We had just became friends that time.

 The group picture at Kyle, Arsh and Ivy birthday dinner

December
OK, for the December segment it will be longer, since I didn't blog about the event happening this month earlier. So, lets get started! =) The month was greeted with final exam. Suffered a lot during the final of the last sem of the year. Tangan gatal go take so many killer subjects. Padan muka -.- And now still awaiting for the results. Expect the best but still prepared for the worst =(

This is another birthday month too. Happy birthday to dear Allison, Qin, Lai, Cass and Ki Yang =) Haven't have birthday celebration for them until now lol >< and birthday presents still owing. I am going to broke soon T_T

Went back Raub at 17th after final to fetch mum to KL for shopping.

 The trip to KL with mum and bro =)

My hometown Raub is a small village. We barely have anything here. Not even a nice shopping place. Biggest shopping place at here is TF. Wonder if city people that read this know what is TF or not LOL. So I made it a habit since 2010 to bring my mum out for shopping, walk walk and eat good food at end of the year. As usual, mum wants to shop at Sunway. This time, I am the most pannai one. I finished shopping within an hour. LOL. Was happy because finally I got my floral dress =D and a blazer! But I finished budget that mum gave me in that hour too. And I haven't bought accessories and shoes =( Had to dig out own pocket money liao. This year, we finally made it to Jogoya. Mum always wanted to try that after hearing so much from her friends. She looks extremely happy in Jogoya. That made me happy too. But one thing I am unhappy that the food quality at Jogoya had fallen. And my sushi with ebi is not there! =( Even Shogun have lots of sushi topped with ebi, and cheese too! But as long as mum happy, then I am ok with that too. Will bring her here again at 2012 since she loves it so much. We had spent so much in this trip too, eat good food and stuff. Mum was influenced by me to buy a Carlo Rino bag. Haha.. Her first branded bag. She is whining so much about the price haha. Mum, the one I like is RM500++, a lot expensive than yours ne.. But I didn't buy it la.. So expensive T_T 

24th, had gathering with my jimui to countdown Christmas together. Went to Midnight Cafe for to count down, and we have a bucket of Heineken. First time ever having beer during gathering with friends. The third glass and I was already red, the last few glass I had already say no, because could not stand the throbbing pain at the head. But still, it was very good time being with my jimui.

The group picture. I look ugly after took alcohol. Face will become super red and super swollen. I don't know why the hell I agreed to them ordering Heineken at the very first place >< And oh, all the food we held is the lucky draw prize.

And for my jimui, we had broke our tradition to have Jogoya during the ladies promotion each year! =( We had maintained it so nicely for two years and this time we didn't have it.

 

The group photo for the gathering at Jogoya 2009 and 2010.

I was actually expecting for the gathering at 2011. But I understand that it is hard for all of us, of different university, course and subjects to match our time and have gathering. Lets have it again at 2012, k? 

So basically, this is the review for 2011. Everyone made their new year resolution, I made mine too, but I am not going to reveal it here. What if I say that I want to slim down now then ended up again another kilos at the end of 2012? T_T Everyone that read this will tease me for sure. I don't want..
So I am just going to keep the resolution to myself. And it will be proved by my actions and results all along the year. Believe in no words, and just look at the results =)

That is all for now. Will update soon!

Happy 2012 peeps! =)

A, B, C or Pass?

RIP to my most hated subject, Corporate Finance.. I shall see you again in your next life.. Don't worry, it won't be long, the coming month I will stuck with you again for another 4 months.. Oh god..

I was in the middle of exam, but after done my killer papers and thinking that my next paper is at 5pm tomorrow, I shall relax and update myself a bit with my internet social life.. Check on facebook and blog of my friends.. Saw two of my friends, jesz and qin updated their blogs today, so I think it will be a good date for a blog session too.. lol.. the more the merrier.. >.<

Realized something that hit me hard in my face today..
I saw my friend's status and post, which shows that they care so much about their cgpa..
Grade of C or even B is enough to make them whining about how the low grade will pull down their cgpa.. Which this makes me feel very bad about myself.. I have very average result in my uni life, sometimes even lower than average when I had failed my papers several times before..
Of course, at the moment when I failed, I feel very bad and depressed.. Thinking of all the time wasted to study the subject but still fail at the end, thinking of the money spent to retake it, thinking of the poor cgpa and mostly, thinking of the journey of university life that will be prolonged just because I failed the papers..
I did improved.. Every time after I failed, I stood up strong again, retake the subject and pull up the grade back despite of how much I hate it..

However, there is still a thing that I never improve on.. I never have passion to get A in my university life.. Well, maybe in my foundation time, to get an A was still the goal..  But after stepping into degree, especially me in entering the last year, grade A is no longer the goal.. The goal? To only pass, of course.. For me, getting an A in degree is super hard, where it is almost impossible.. You should be happy when you can get a pass in degree life.. Only those kiasu people that just enter degree will still aim for A..

But now seems that I am wrong.. Somehow, when I browsed my friends' facebook page and blog, they are all mentioning their aim to get A in the final..
When one people told me that he wants to get A for his papers, I will think that this fella is just another kiasu people that are still new to degree.. an A in a degree life? How impossible is that..
But when there are 10 people saying the same thing?
It start to shake my original mindset that 'impossible to get A in degree'..
I doubt on my own ability and capability..
When only one can get A, he is just pure lucky or pure smart.. but when 10 people can get it..?
It is not pure lucky or pure smart anymore..
It is the effort you put in achieving a thing and the passion towards it..
Reflecting back on myself, I realized where is my mistake all the time..
I never get an A because I never aim for it.. I never believe in it.. I never believe in myself.. I never work hard towards it..
Work towards getting only pass and to get A is two different things.. and I never ever put enough effort for it..
How shameful is it when I only realize it now..
If this is the attitude I possessed towards my study since I stepped into my university life, there is probably only a year and half left to my graduation..
Feel shameful, feel bad and regret..

Thinking of today's papers, Financial Reporting, it is actually a good chance for me to grab an A for the very first time in my degree.. but it is me who take it for granted, not memorizing the format of account properly..
And my Corporate Finance paper, it will be another nightmare for me when I think that I have to retake the entire subject in coming sem..
The result is not out, in fact it was only 8 hours ago since I did that paper so it is not confirmed yet that I fail.. but I knew myself very well.. I knew what I was doing in the exam hall.. I never stop writing in the 2 hours period given but I know the standard of my answer.. They are not sufficient to pass.. But still, lets hope for a miracle to happen.. I want to proceed with my papers, not getting stuck with the same paper all over again..
When I was in exam hall, I did not have enough time to finish the paper..
For the last 10 minutes, my answer sheet is still blank for a question worth of 30 marks.. Mr Adrian was so happened to walk by me that time.. He saw my empty answer sheet, and then he looked at the clock, and look again at my answer sheet.. I was only just about to finish only one paragraph by that time.. I dare not to look into his face.. But I can somehow 'see' the disappointment in him.. It is already the last ten minutes, for a 30 marks question, and I was only at the first paragraph with only two lines of sentence..
Yeah I knew.. I can't help.. I was mad at myself too.. I felt like apologizing to Mr Adrian but to think back, it is useless..
What for apologizing to him..? It is me to suffer the consequences.. I should say sorry to myself.. Sorry for not realizing everything earlier..

If 10 of my friends can do it, and never say that getting an A is impossible, then why should I give up to get an A too? Why am I always at the negative thoughts when the positive one is just in front of me..?
I took everything for granted.. I remembered even getting a B for my English paper because I never put effort in it.. It was just English Language paper anyway.. But now, I want to change..
No more negative attitude.. no more giving up before trying.. I will take the past as lesson, a lesson that will motivate me in a way so that I can do better in my study..I am prepared to take the worst consequences for my final this time, but lets not look at the past anymore.. I had reflected myself on my past mistakes and this is time to change.. Lets have passion and goal towards the coming study sem.. Good luck =)

I still have two papers left, so better off to study now.. lets see if the last minute passion towards study and goal to get A will result in A or not =)
For friends who are having final, good luck guys =)
Fighting!

Hey yo~
Went to hiatus for sometimes again..
Well.. what to do.. a month before this, I was having this tonsillitis for a week plus..
And then the mid term break started..
And right after the break is the submission date for assignments and tests..
So the busy life continues till now.. no, in fact I am still busy..
But feel like updating the blog, so why don't take a break? =)

As I mentioned in previous post before, 111111 was my 3rd anniversary with bf =)
So at the day itself, we went to our favourite duck rice restaurant for lunch and then we headed to Tutti Frutti for desserts..
Believe me if you step into the duck rice restaurant, you don't feel like sitting there for long time and even to order for drinks
But I promised it serves the best duck rice ever!



We both decide to go simple with the celebration and the next day, we went to Sunway Pyramid..
Ahh.. how long was it since we went to shopping mall just to walk around?
Every time we went for an outing, it will have the 'official purpose' there..
Mostly because of his business or work or some other important stuff..
When he came fetch me, I gave him the presents that I last-minutely prepared lol..
Rushing here and there but still can't give it to him on the official day :(



All bought and prepared at very last minute..
The pillow was prepared a week before and the 'book' was prepared only few days before the day..
Diesel perfume, Bros tumbler and the Iko biscuits was bought a day before anniversary..
I had to make a big lie to him so that I can go to Jusco Seremban without getting suspected :p
For me, the most meaningful is the 'book' where the it had recorded our journey since the day we get together until now in the 25 pages of writing and pictures..
I was having hard time writing out all the moments as I have poor memory and lack of pictures describing the moments..
But still, all the hard works pay off as he told me, he didn't even know that we have been through that much to come to here, 111111 =)
Yeah.. I didn't realize it too.. until I force myself to recall each events and moments and editing pictures to complete the book for both of us..
We were both carried away by the hectic life and we tend to forget what we have been through to make who are we today, so it is good to actually have something that can remind us about the path that we had been through =)

I think I will withdraw back the statement that he didn't buy me anything for the anniversary..
He bought me a meal in Bubba Gump, few singlets from Forever21 and a bracelet from Kitschen



Three days after the day, there was another gathering with my jimui for the bleated birthday celebration for Ivy, Kyle and Arsh at Allegro Cafe..
Went out early on that day because bf had to go SS15 to apply for overseas universities..
At around 6pm, he dropped me at doink's house and there, SS session started :p



Around 8pm+, we went to Allegro Cafe =)
The first gathering since my birthday gathering at July..
We were all busy with studies and all of us came with the date after like almost 2 months of discussing the date to gather..
I am so sorry to the 3 birthday people as I didn't buy anything for them :(
Will buy them presents when I am free >.<
Nice decorations and excellent service at the cafe but too bad variety of foods is too little..
No photos taken from me *I want a good digital camera!* let's wait for the pro to upload the photos :p
And as usual, 2nd round was held at Taipei Taipei, a not bad place to hang around but I hate that they allow smoking in the air-cond room lol
But this time, due to most of us was busy with academic, only 5 attended the 2nd round - Lai, Jovey, Shereen, Thatcher and me
Not so perfect gathering at the time as most of us were busy but will look forward for another gathering for the December baby at year end, where everyone is free =)

Ok, that to head with my oh-so-busy life
Will update soon! =)

111111

Hey bloggie~
I am actually very busy now..
But thinking that today is a good day, so I decide to write even for a short post..

First of all, happy 111111 to all my readers! =)
It is a beautiful date today that happens only once in a thousand year and guess what, today is my 3rd anniversary too! =)

My bf and I started our relationship at 11.11.08 and throughout this 3 years, we have been through a lot, happy and conflicts..
And I am more than glad that we didn't give up on each other, still hanging on each other, making our way to another year of anniversary..
So how did we celebrate our very special 3rd anniversary?
Simple enough, we had lunch at our most favourite duck rice restaurant and we shared a cup of Trutti Frutti =)
And that's for the celebration..
Hmm.. maybe it is not the end there, since we are going to shopping mall tomorrow just to walk around, date around and chill around =)
I would not really call it as a 'anniversary date'.. because it was just normal window shopping there and here..
For the first time in any important event involving me, he didn't get me any presents, which I am glad for it..
I had receive lots of things from him, yet I never get to give..
So it is actually not bad not receiving any present from your love one during the anniversary =)
But this time, I got him something =)
And actually now I am still rushing it for him..
Last minute work =(
Ehem ehem.. hint is already given here.. *it is a hand-made gift* :p
Picture will not be shown out for now..
He will be the first to see the gifts before anyone else =)
And I am lucky that he didn't check on my blog, lol..

So today, everyone is talking about 111111 and everyone make a wish on it since it only happens once in a thousand year..
My wish?
Remains unchanged and simple..
I wish that everyone I love will stay happy and healthy, including myself =)
Love here does not refer only to romance love..
My definition towards love is much more broader than that..
It includes family love, friends love and any other kind of 'love' you can think of =)
I love my mummy daddy, my little bro..
I love my hometown jimui that grow up together with me..
I love my classmates that sit together with me for hours to complete the assignment..
To people I love, you should know who you are! Please be healthy and happy always!
I am always wishing for your happiness and health! =)

Talking about 111111, I somehow think that I got some "fate" with these numbers?
Like whenever I look at the time in my car, my smartphone, my laptop, almost all the time it will show 11.11am, 11.11pm, 1.11am or 1.11pm..
Of course the digital clock is running and they show some other time too, but I always get to "bump" in with the 11.11 or 1.11
How weird it is right..?
Is there any lottery that I can buy with the number of 1111?
I will like to see if the numbers bring any luck, lol..

Hmm.. guess I will end it here, I am rushing to publish this post before clock strikes 12am :p
What, it was a wonderful day today and I want make my post wonderful too, lol~
And I need to keep rushing to finish the gift so I can present it to him right after he is awake tomorrow! :D
Until then, tata world!

Happy 111111 ! =)

Pencils

Pencils..
No wait, in more accurate terms, lousy pencils and mechanical pencils..
How many do you still keep or use pencils..?
How many of you have come across a China brand lousy mechanical pencil but still keep it..?
I do..

People asked me why I still keep all the trash..
I replied that they are still usable, so don't waste it..
A part of the answer is true..
Another part is I am addicted to break pencils or mechanical pencils into half when I got angry..



Scientific explanation behind all these..?
Well, I don't know..
It is just..
Imagine the pencil is the people that make you angry, turn your sunny day with birds chirping into a stormy day..
And then you can grab it in your hand, and break it into half..like in real life you can kung fu the ass of that bastard that ruin your day..
And your anger may just dissapear after you break that cheap, lousy pencils that may not even cost a ringgit..
Do the calculation. And you will find that it is super worth it =)

Mechanical pencil is the best..
Because it was made from plastic, and sometimes, it is hard to break it into half..
Thus, I will concentrate all my 'energy' to break one mechanical pencil, and then I will get satisfied..
Cheap, how much will a China mechanical pencil cost..?

Pencil will do too..
But pencil was made from lead and wood, and it is too easy to be broken into half..
Thus, I will need to break more than one pencil to calm myself down..
Super cheap, yes I need more than one, but they were all cheap stuff..

People said that I do not know how to handle my stress..
I, being snobbish, never admit it..
Come one..
When I am in stress, I just need few minutes to cry out, few pencils, or an ice-cream to chill myself..
Back and forth, all the process may not even take half an hour..
I did not blow out my anger on anyone else, expect for my pencils..
That is good enough already right?

And don't tell me that I do not know how to control my emotion, aka my anger..
I had kept the mechanical pencil shown in above picture for almost two years..
I, being snobbish again, have pretty good temper and patient..

So yeah, what is your ways of controlling or releasing your anger? =)