Am feeling good

Hey readers! :D
I knew that I had been posting a lot lately but just please bear with me la..
I can only revise well after getting my word of heart spoken out :p
So there, in these few days time, good things happen to me in a row :)
I think right if later I go buy 4d with my car number I might as well as get the last prize :p
So lets get started with what's so good happened to me lately :)

Tuesday
As mentioned in previous post, Ah Long and Heather knocked on my window and chatted with me..
It was the first time for Heather and it had been long time since Ah Long knocked on my window..
I remembered those days when Ah Long knocked on my window simply just to disturb me or to borrow written assignment from me..
Whatever purpose he is coming for, he always make my day :)

Wednesday
A robbery case happened in Inti and I eye witnessed it myself..
So coming back to my room, I posted it on Facebook, sharing it with other Inti-ians so they can took a lesson from it and take good care of their own belongings and safety..
And surprisingly, Lily replied me and she was so interested to know about the whole story and so she invited me to the pantry so I can tell her the whole thing in details..
And on that day, a student forum is going on..
Students could go there and practiced their freedom of speech with the management..
And Lily suggested going to the forum and propose to management about this case..
And so, she invited me to go to forum together and dinner with her!! :D
I was so happy that I immediately agreed..
It is not always people asked me for dinner eh..
Dinner at KFC Tesco, yay finally I got heavy meal for dinner since the sem and I gained 1/2 inch on my belly after the meal -.-

Thursday
I was in extreme moody mood right after I woke on that day..
Why..? Because I missed my important lecture in the morning at 8am.. Taxation!!
It was a sudden replacement class, but still it was important..!!
I was so freaked out because I remembered the miss said that she will ask question for those skipped her class :( I am not doing it on purpose sobs..
And I have Taxation class with the miss at the very same day, 4pm!
And the whole day, I was trying to catch up the lesson by studying on my own..
But sometimes, it is not that when you read, then you will understand..
Taxation is all about getting the correct concept..
So without any explanation, even reading the the 3 inches thick text book won't help..
I was frustrated and scared..
But in the class, Xwee aka Venna Tang taught me the lecture! :D
Felt so grateful!
She summarized the 2 hours lessons and taught me in less than 10minutes time!
And thanks to her, I grab the concept pretty well and my mood level rise from red to green immediately! ;)

Friday
I almost missed the 8am class today but lucky my mum called to wake me up! :D
Yes I still need a morning call from my mum, call me baby and spoiled brat..
I am proud to be the spoiled brat, how many of you having your mum calling day and night?
Me love my mummy!!
Good thing #2 for the day, my classmate bought me a sandwich! :)
Thanks so much..
She said that I lend her my notes so this was her way of saying thanks..
She was being mad polite! It was just a note! And as far as I can remember, my notes are messy, I was wondering if she understand it or not..

Sorry if this post bored you reader..
I am very aware that the 'good things' that I posted might be very silly and minor to some of you guys..
Almost all my friends have their own buddy in Uni.. And the 'good things' that I claimed might happen to you guys always, but not me..
I am a weirdo I know.. I don't have much friends here.. I am always alone in my room or the most I hang out with is with my boyfriend's friends..
So when these things happen to me, I was just too happy..
I felt like finally people notice about my presence..
So even the slightest thing you did or say will make my day!
These might be minor to you but its all for me!
Appreciate those who gave me these good feeling! love you guys muahx! :)

Unexpected guests

Well well.. I have a quiz tomorrow and look what am I doing now..
Blogging..!
I supposed to sleep or do revision now..!
But, I am extremely happy now thus I decided to give myself a break and blog it out :)
Just now I had two unexpected guests..
For your all information, I am staying in a hostel block at ground floor..
The convenience of staying at ground floor is people can knock your window and stand there to chat with you the whole day :)
And this friend of mine, AhLong knew that I was staying here long time ago..
So just now, he paid me a visit together with Heather..
Just a simple knock or a simple "RUBY LIM LOON PING!" from outside the window can make me smile wide :)
Finally I got friend who pay me a visit after class time and willing to stand outside the window to chat with me eh..
See, I got friends too neh.. ^^
I was happy..
I wonder since when we had our last chat like this..?
One year..? Two years..?
Or since the class separation at the second sem I was in Inti..?
AhLong and Heather stood outside the window to chat with me, and observed my room..
Haha.. I was real happy..
I never give up on missing you guys..
3A2 was the best class I ever had in my life after 3M and 5I classes that I had during my secondary school time..
3A2 was the first class I had in Inti, consisted of 20 male and 20 female students..
The best and irreplaceable class I had in Inti :)
AhLong and Heather, were in the class as well..
I never thought of having guests from my window anymore..
Firstly, it is simply because my current classmates don't know where am I staying..
Bet that they are not interested to know as well..
Most of my current classmates, are just plain classmates..
The interactions we had, are all limited to class period only..
Second, it had been a long long gap since my interaction with my batch of friends..
So it is never crossed in my mind that they will pay me another visit..
But now, they did..
AhLong and Heather; although the chat is not a long one, but it is enough to make me smile wide, enough to make me feel touched :')
Lucky I never move out from this room..
Yes, I am staying in a room located at ground floor and near the study room, which sometimes it is super noisy due to the people walking, running and chatting near my room..
And sometimes it is so inconvenience because I could not open the window wide when I feel hot..
But still, there is reason where I refuse to leave..
There is a good reason where I am willing to bear with the noise and stuff :)
And the reason shall be the one that make my day..
Happy to welcome the unexpected guests :)

Nightmare

Nightmares haunting..
But of all the nightmares why this popped out in my dream..?
It was scary, it was horrible..
I hope this will never ever happen..
The nightmare started at an old house..
Seems like those very old village house..
Never seen this house before in my life but in my dream, i recognized that 'house' is the house I am staying..
How come my house become like this..?
Become worse than how it supposed to be..?
Then, there are lots of guests in the living room, crowding a girl..
The guests are all my relatives and friends.. and the girl, me of course..
I am dressed in a purple knee length dress, my favourite all the time..
I still remember the details of the dress.. purple dress with simple design yet it is accessorized with those glittery accessories..
And I don't know how it happens but it is my wedding day..
I was wearing the wedding dress, waiting for someone appear..
I was waiting and waiting with all the guests in the living room..
I don't know who was I waiting for, but I had a feel that I am not waiting for my prince charming..
The guests are all looking at me with sad and pity look..
I was nervous, still waiting for the appearance of that someone..
Then, somebody shouted to me, asking me to go to the behind of the house..
I didn't question why, nor giving her a questioning look..
I obeyed and started to walk to the direction given..
She then asked me to run, and I obeyed..
Then I reached the bathroom..
The condition of the bathroom is disgusting..
Faeces are everywhere on the floor of the bathroom..
Then I saw two of my uncles cleaning the bathroom using the water pipes.. and worst, I saw my mum sitting at the corner of the bathroom, crying..
I approached her.. asking her why but she just cried..
My uncle then tell me that she had a disease called bowel movement control something..
I can't memorize the name.. but I understood what was that..
It is something like you can't control when and where you need to go toilet..
When you felt like going and you can't find a toilet in time, you will just let go of the faeces at everywhere you stand..
I was shock when I heard this..
But still I went to my mum, hugged her and said that everything is okay..
And then I grabbed the water pipe from my uncle's.. like indicating I am ready to take the responsibility to take care of my mum for the rest of my life..
And when I woke, I almost cried out..
What if it becomes true..?
What will happen to this family..?
What will happen to mum..?
Can't we financially support this..?
Can mum emotionally and physically strong enough to fight with the disease..?
Everything was running into my mind at the same time..
But when I turned, I saw my mum, still sleeping peacefully..
The worry was almost gone..
Heavily I smiled..
If I started to save and buy less of my wants and buy her supplementary then everything should be fine right..?

A new beginning

Hey bloggie..
Another week passed since the previous post..
As you guys can see, the previous post's format was different from usual..
My bad, I thought I can typed it into Ms Word before copy and paste here..
Mana tau turn out that way..
Spacing between each lines and my :( and :) turned to be L and J.. lol
I was too lazy to edit it back, so just bear with that post la..

Here, I am at the first week of the new sem..
This is a short sem, 8 weeks of study and 2 weeks of holiday in between..
Results were released, my results were very disappointing..
I had my bad time crying over the results, felt bad over it, but what past is past..
Well, what can I do now..?
I can't do anything other than keep myself marching forward..
Yes I am a strong girl, I can do it..
Had days thinking of where are my mistakes and try very hard to find the solutions..
And I had one..
Pray hard that I can disciplined myself to stick to this until the day I had my final..
Determined to get As this time..
Determined to pull up my CGPA this time..
Determined to be a graduate at targeted time..
So nothing much happened this week..
Just more on preparing myself to a better nerd..
Had very hard time choosing subjects for this sem..
As I don't want to over pressure myself again with over-flowing subjects..
But at last also end up choosing three core papers this sem..
Will strive my best for it!
A for this sem! :D

My jimui are all going back to hometown this week..
Jesz is going to officially introduce someone to us :)
Congratz my jimui :D
Too bad I am not going back..
I had accepted an event this weekend..
Gonna start working tomorrow..
And since next saturday is Agong's birthday and mummy is not going to work on that day, I am going to reject any coming event on next weekend and go back to my hometown!
Pay me double pay la, and you think I care about it ar..?
If it is not now I am going to accompany my mum more and see her more, when am I going to do it..?
I still know how to differentiate and measure the importance of that family bond and money k..

Hmm.. nothing else other than a boring update about myself..
Gonna do tutorial on my Financial Reporting paper.. Jiayous! ><
That's all for now~
Buh-bye! ^^

Appreciate

Hello hot stuff! :p

So here am I again..

I had been through the stupid exam, had my princess life (loyal readers should knew that my princess life is equal to holiday :p) and now finally, back again to Inti nilai L

Depart at 5pm from Raub, reached Inti at 8pm..

Super late due to heavy rain and traffic jam..

Today is first day for my cousin sister in Inti..

Yup, she will be studying here for diploma in business admin..

And her room is just three door next to mine..

So after reached Inti, we get into our room, be prepared and headed out for dinner..

Dinner was just for me and her, as my boyfriend is too tired to have dinner..

During dinner, my aunt also my cousin sister’s mum called her..

To ask stuff like ‘where are you now?’, ‘you got tidy up your room?’, and ‘had your dinner?’

Just a very short conversation between them..

I was not eavesdropping, but she was just sitting right in front of me and talked to the mum..

So right after the conversation, my cousin sister burst out crying..

I was so shocked seeing her that way..

Okay, she was the type that look very though..

So it is hard to imagine or even see her in this way..

She was not having any difficulties in new environment, just that she missed the mum a lot, she said..

I didn’t really console her..

It was hard..

It is the stage that she must endure it in order to grow..

I had been there before..

So don’t judge me, saying that I am being mean and cruel..

I had been there before, I understood how she felt..

When I saw her crying, there was an urge for me to cry as well..

I missed my mum , too..

The holiday was god damn short..

I haven’t steamboat with my mum, haven’t bring her to Valley Resort for lunch, haven’t cleaned up the store room for her, and more..

Seeing her now was like seeing myself at the past..

I remembered first day I was here in Inti Nilai, I was so excited yet sad..

Excited that I finally can step in into a private college yet sad because leaving home far away..

The first day I was here, my mum and little brother booked a taxi and sent me here, helped me to clean my room, went to Giant for quick shopping and lunch..

And finally, when my mum and brother were about to leave, I cried..

I don’t want to be alone at here..

I don’t want to leave my mum..

I don’t want to leave the kingdom where I spent growing up..

My mum cried too..

I never leave her..

But I am grown..

I need to get further education..

And after the education, I need to get a work in big city..

I need to leave..

I remembered that I used half a year to get away from home sick, to get myself really adapted to new environment..

Now, 3 years in Inti..

Of course I miss my mum all the time, but it is not as worse as the first day I was here..

I called my mum daily and I went back hometown when I am free..

There is no turning back in our life..

I wish I can go back to high school where my home is only 10minutes ride away from school..

I wish I can go back to the time where I went back to home to see mummy waiting for me..

But I know these are all impossible..

Like I said, to leave is a stage everyone have to go through..

To leave for higher education and better job..

As I stepped into college life, I know it is impossible to see my family daily like I was in high school..

And I am aware that as time passes, there is lesser time I could spend with my family..

People close with me always ask me that why I always call my mum and why I always want to go back home..

My answer is always the same; if I don’t call her now, and I refuse to go back home, I will never have the chance to do these again once I stepped into work world or even when I am in my final year.. so I don’t want to regret for not doing these..

People learnt from past..

I didn’t appreciate the past where I had my mum 24 hours ready beside me but I shoved her away..

I didn’t appreciate the past when my daddy brought home my favourite fruits but I didn’t finished them..

And now, when I lost them, I start to know how to appreciate..

And now, whenever I still have the time, I will call and go back, appreciate ever single moment spent with my dearest family..

This is one of top in my most important list..

Life is short..

I just want to provide all of us series of good memories while we are all bond in the name of family J

My mummy's princess

Hey bloggie and bloggie's readers :)
Today was a happy day for me..
Why..?
Because the queen of my heart a.k.a. my mummy came to a visit in Nilai..
My cousin sister wishes to study in Inti, thus she came over to register here..
So my aunt dragged my mum along, simply because my mummy recognize the way to Inti and she had a daughter here :)
I was waiting for today for more than a week.. so excited! :D
So they departed from Raub at 11am and reach here at almost 2pm..
The registry session was so time-wasting.. because we need to queue up for our turn..
And the people in front of us kept bugging the officer with questions and stuff, wasting all our time..
Just like those uncle from kampung who don't know a thing and keep asking stupid questions.. lol
The registry session took about an hour plus..
By the time we were done, it was already 3:30pm..
So we had to rush to Giant to fetch dear, who was working there..
And we went to Secret Recipe together for lunch :)
I intended to bring mummy over there to try out the aussie beef steak, since mummy loves beef steak a lot..
But too bad, luck was not on my side, the beef steak was out of sold..
Argh..! damn frustrated just now..! It is not every time we can hang out and eat together..
And just a simply "sorry miss, aussie beef steak is out of sold" ruined my plan..
:( felt so sorry for mummy..
And there was our lunch..
After lunch, we decided to go to Tesco Nilai..
Those aunty ar.. the first thing popped in their mind when entering Tesco was to search for Milo -.-
Milo is becoming more and more expensive nowadays..
My two brothers are very loyal towards Milo, thus mummy had no choice but to buy it even it is pricey..
Mummy and aunt each grabbed a packet of 2kg Milo..
They said here was cheaper then Raub..
Raub's Milo costs Rm31.50 for 2kg and here was Rm 28 with free gift -.-
Then they shopped for another thing as well..
Mummy shopped till Rm130++..
Ok la.. half of the items were mine :p
Since I am having a 'bank' just next to me, why don't I used it wisely..? :p
Felt kinda sorry for mummy.. but i had no other choices..
If I were to buy all those things on my own, I will have barely enough money for the month :(
And after shopped at Tesco, they went back to Raub.. ;(
I will miss my mummy..

And now, coming back to my room, and when the moments rewind in my mind, everything was just so happy and sweet..
Cousin sis is coming over to study, become my junior and her room was just 3 doors next to mine..
Cousin sis brought me a hell lots of kuih, so I can enjoy it over here..
And when I look at the kuih, smile will automatically appear on my face..
Stupid silly girl..
You thought you are bringing kuih for the whole kampung..? =]
My aunt brought me a 1.5litres of self-brewed herbal tea :)
And not to left out, my mummy brought me a tumble of bird nest..
She said it helps enhancing my skin and brain cells..
Hehe..
So touched..
Felt like crying out now.. =']
All these, are little things that make life great..
They all give me motivation..
Especially the bird nest from mummy..
Give me motivation to study harder.. to pass all the subjects I took..
I can imagine in my mind, from how my mummy works hard, then she bought the bird nest, woke up early in the morning to brew it to her bringing it in a tumble from Raub to Nilai..
It is the value that no money can buy :)
I love you too mummy..
Two weeks.. another two weeks before I can come back to home..
Clean our messy house for you, colouring your toe nails for you, chatting the whole night with you, go to the saloon with you and become your princess.. :)

A Random One

Hey ya world..
I am extremely sorry the late update..
Well.. I was busy with works, assignments and tests.. then when free time, don't feel like updating because lazy..! :p
It is a random post today..
I should be studying by now..
13 days left to final and I didn't start on anything yet :(
Just could not put myself into the study mood..
Something bad happened lately..
And as usual I won't mention it over here..

Feeling and emotion is just something hard to be controlled..
You forced yourself to smile and study well, but somehow you can just stare at the same page for hours..
I was a simple yet happy girl..
As time passed, as I grown, everything changes..
No more innocence in my life, no more "I don't know"..
Everything, I have to know, I have to care..
Because they were all related to me and the people I love dearly..
Am trying very hard to stay strong.. be strong for them..
Not all I could help..
There is something that still have to be endured by own..
I will just pray that they will be strong as well..

So ignore the emo part of mine.. I am so sorry for the short emo babbles..
Guess I just can't help it but to spill out a bit.. =]
Now lets start with something random with me lately..

I am doing very well here, thank you :)
Except for the fact that I am super boring over here..
Most of the time, I don't feel like studying..
I will surf net, refreshing Facebook over and over again :p
And I will sit on the chair, staring the book and start daydreaming for hours..
Lol.. Can't all these be worst..?
As I mentioned earlier, I have only 13 days left to my final examination.. and I have six subjects with me..! :(
I am all stressed out, I am scared..
But I just don't know why I can't bring myself to study..
The books dislike me I guess :(
I wish to go back home, but between me and my boyfriend, we just can't find a matching time to go back together..
Plus actually mummy is coming over next week..! yay! :D
My cousin decided to study here, but she want to attend the Open Day, so my mummy has to accompany her and aunt over here..
And come to find me as well..! :)
How I miss my mummy..!
Then, I just decided not to go back, since it is actually around 2o days more before I can go back and enjoy my sem break..
So I will just be patient, and be a nerd in Inti for this few weeks..

And oh.. I found a new job..
It is a promoter under Epromode..
Average 4 to 6 working days in a month, depends on my supervisors..
If she calls, then I have extra income..
If no, I will just have to be a good girl staying in Inti or go back hometown..
Pretty good job with average income..
At least this will help me to cover my expenses, my pocket money is not that thick that it could cover all my needs and wants.. :p
I had already started to work.. only two events so far..
And after my final, I am going to be hardworking, take more events and earn more money..
It was tiring, it was hard..
But I just can't give up now..
I can't think of stopping..
I am not like my peers, who work to earn and save for a iphone5 or LV bag..
I work to earn and save for my dreams..
I got tons of dreams to be fulfilled :)
And my dreams, no they are ambitions; I am not going to reveal here..
Wait till I achieved it and my success can eventually say it out for me..
I believe in no words :)

And lately, I don't know why and how..
Somehow, I found myself do not believe in people easily..
Good or bad, I am also not sure myself..
Wish it is just not a bad thing.. I have got enough bad experiences..
And for the one I didn't believe in (of cause they don't know who they are :p ), I am so sorry for not putting in faith into you guys..
I was once a strong believer in friends and anything else..
But sometimes, putting in too much faith could cause yourself harmed..
But no worries.. not putting in faith does not mean I will not open my heart to it.. :)

Hmm.. can't think of anything to write anymore.. :p
Guess I will just have to stop it here..
And I am glad that blogger, once again has help me to relieve myself..
True, I didn't reveal anything here..
But writing out random stuff about myself is enough to help me to de-stress..
Thanks bloggie again! :D
At least I am not as emo as before =]
So time to have a nap *:p* and then turning on my nerdie mood..
Hopefully I would not get distracted by the fantastic daydreams of mine later..
Next update..?
Hopefully I will be able to update again in a week time..!
Till then, adios! :)