有您真好

有您真好
Family is the best.
They are the one I can go to when I am sad, angry, depressed and upset.
They are the one standing next to me even when I am wrong.

I am very aware that I was never a brilliant student, well in university at least. But to be thrown with that fact right at my face few times just made me look so bad and embarrassed.
Mother and youngest brother were angry at this. Mom said that if the low grades is such a trouble, then why the job interview and not just reject my application from the beginning. Youngest brother - ya' know, kids are sometimes just so cute - he asked why people look up so much to the grades. It is not like people with high grades could do job right. You might just ask 'the grades' to install air cond, he said (air cond is because of it is his field of jobs). Given the insult and low salary, mom asked me to just work as bank officer rather than the crappy company. So called one of the top10 but treating her daughter like sh*t at the interview LOL

We might be irrational and I might be overreact. I get upset for smallest thing I am unhappy with. But coming back home to people I love and knowing that they will stand right next to me regardless what happen just make me happy. Home is the best place to get protected from the dangers out there. Home is the best place to temporarily put down all the stress and burden. Family is the best people that can cheer you up with even only words (remember the air cond? I laughed so hard at that silly statement)

妈妈，弟弟
有你们真好
有个无论我做什么都会支持我的家人真好

Jobless

It had been long since my last update. I still had a lot of #bloggingdebts going on but let's not go for these now. Most people that read my blog are my close friends so you guys must know already that I had graduated and now staying home.

Here comes the topic. I had been staying home for more than 3 months yet I am still staying home. Friends and relatives had been asking "Why are you always home?", "Haven't found a job yet?", "What are you do at home?", "Did you actually plan to work?", "Your mum feed you all these months after you graduate ar?" and so and so. They even comes in with "Youngsters nowadays huh. You all prefers to rest for months before get your ass off to find job right?"

Yes, I am very well aware that I am doing nothing at home being like an useless. At first, I enjoyed staying home so much. I have my big, new cozy room here which I can never rent a room up to this standard after I go out to the city for job. I have a 50' plasma in the living room, with all sort of Astro channels await for me. I have a comfortable dining room where everyday I am motivated to help cook good food for my family members, so we all can sit in a same table enjoying good meals.

But reality kicks in. I could not live this way for my whole life. I gotta go out and work. When people asked me, I had always reply "I am still waiting for companies' replies". I am not lying. I applied to few companies I wanted and I had been waiting for almost a month now. If I knew that companies will take their sweet time in replying, I would have apply last year in my final semester. I started to fret out. My friends are all working or waiting to commence already but I am at home doing nothing. Even for those who are not working, they are having work and travel in western countries. Everyday I am questioning myself, "What am I still doing at home?" but never really got myself an answer. I started to feel bad. Sure it is pretty easy for my mum to feed me. I eat only a little, I help do house chores but this is not what I wanted. My younger siblings have way lower qualifications than me but they are earning wages themselves. Me? Sometimes when my younger brother asked me about my job application, I was so ashamed to tell that I am still waiting and still applying. Sure he did not mean anything bad but is just curious and concern for my jobs, but still.

It is all my own fault that I am still jobless and staying home right now. If I could just move my lazy ass to apply for jobs during my last semester. Or at least right after I graduate. Before this I still told people that I will enjoy my CNY before start applying, damn and now I have enjoy my life way too much.

Sometimes I told myself to worry now or to feel bad now would not help. Just apply and apply for more companies and wait for the answers. Meanwhile, do anything I can at home. Cook, clean, tidy up, do filings, accompany my mum. And fill in this blog maybe.

Back to Study

After one month plus holiday-ing in the class, fooling with my classmates and doing nothing but surfing net in the room after class, I had finally get back to serious and start studying properly. Thanks to the test tomorrow LOL Spent half an hour in the library searching for the books needed and I had been studying for two days straight. And now decide to take a bit break by updating blog and change the template before I vomit on the books.

Over Rated

Does anyone else have this weird habit as I do?

Pictures taken at different time, different clothing stores. 

I have to confess that I particularly love trying on all the clothes displayed in the stores. And ended up never buying them :x Except if I have the cash or I really love the clothes. Or else I would just be trying for fun. I know the person at fitting room will hate me to death. I am so sorry that I cause you all troubles but I really just couldn't help it. Come on. It couldn't be just me. All girls love to do that! Or it is just really me? T_T

But do ya know the real reason I refuse to buy? I finally found the reasons today.

OVER RATED

From Forever 21

Yup. I think all most of the clothes displayed in a well decorated store with ten plus promoters working in it inside an air condition shopping mall are over rated. Which I was usually reluctant to buy because of the reason. I would always compared the price of the attire in the stores with online boutique. The price difference is a big gap but at the same time, I can't deny that the quality will differ a lot too. But for me I care about the price more than the quality. So yeah. I could just try and try and try the clothes and take nice pictures inside fitting room and dream that one day I will marry a rich husband that he will buy me whatever I want. Nah, just kidding. I will earn the money myself. 

$money$ is so important nowadays that it must be printed on the cloth too.

Top from Forever 21, shorts from Hush Puppies (got it at RM10++ at warehouse clearance sale), the bag in the background is from a random bag shop in Sunway Pyramid

By the way, I am so in love with the clothes (and not to forget the price too!) at http://newnaturalfashion.com/ and http://getaaway.blogspot.com/ Not really sure about the quality since I haven't purchase any outfit from getaaway and my purchase at newnaturalfashion is still on delivery. Mind sharing other good online boutique stores?

If I want it I will go get it

I rarely update stuff in Facebook nowadays (and blog too :x sorry for the long hiatus) but today I was exceptionally boring that I updated the Facebook status twice. About going back hometown and cutting the hair short. 

For my last semester, I had pretty free lecture schedule where I do not have class on Friday and my Monday class started at 4pm. Thus since the first week of the semester I never failed to go back hometown every weekend. Back to hometown Raub on Friday morning and then to Nilai back on Monday morning. Today is Thursday and my class ended at 3pm. I thought of stick to the original routine to go back on Friday morning so I can stay to do bit of revision. Bullshit. I should have known myself well. Me doing revision when the test is two weeks ahead? C'mon. This is not me. And now regretted. Because I am mood-less to do anything at all in the hostel. Might as well go back hometown right? At least I get to eat good dinner lol. And when I regretted of not going back earlier; I decided that it was a bit too late to drive back at 7pm+. I always avoid driving at night due to my astigmatism. Then I just stick to regret-not-going-back-home mood for night, until I saw this..

This is how youngster is. Love to do insane stuff. Miss home out of sudden, then went back home. Today suddenly miss home much - now I am at home. Mama got surprised too. Haha

I just got speechless. Wtf was I thinking at the earlier of the day? My cousin was so right. You miss home, you go back now. She went back even for a day. Ok maybe a day plus. Went back hometown on Thursday evening and back to Nilai on Saturday morning for the part time job. Just because she missed home. Then why am I thinking so much? I want to go home - I will just go home now. 

Then another thing is the hair! I was thinking to chop it off to shoulder length. But then I am taking forever to make a decision T.T until I see this (below), at around the same time where I saw my cousin's status..

Where is the courage coming from?.... (I apologize that I am a banana the rest of the words are too hard for me to understand T.T)

Lemme present you the winner of Talent award for Asia Muse Search 2013 Miss Wei Chean. 

This is inspiration. I don't know why but this photo inspired me. Maybe because it was updated around the same time as the previous status, I felt inspired to just go with my feeling and cut my hair short. If I want short hair, then I will just go cut it short. Ok la maybe not as short as this. This is not shoulder length okay. 

I don't know why am I so afraid of doing things, and making new plan out of the old plan. I think too much of the consequences and outcomes, maybe? Maybe I should just get rid of the worry. The worry and stress will age people faster! We live just once. If I feel like doing it, I will just do it. As long as it didn't bring harm to me or people around me right? 

Like now, I feel like walking out to the convenient store for an ice-cream, and I will just go do it. I want the ice-cream and I will go get it. The consequences? Nah, I will jog two more laps tomorrow. 

There are 5 in the family
But the dinner prepared is for 4
The rice bowls on the table is only 3
I'll blame the upper generation for the way of upbringing the kids and the mistakes made
I promised myself that I won't let this happen in my own family in future
5 people means 5 rice bowls on the table
No more no less

It is a July Babies Birthday Gathering

#bloggingdebt

An event that happened almost a year ago *guilty face* *looks around* *whistle*

Happiest gift ever is to gather together with a bunch of people I love. My birthday gathering or not, it doesn't matter. As long as we all gather and have a nice outing, it was the best for me. So I planned out this July babies birthday gathering. Cause you see, there are too many who are born in July in our group. Sher, Symone, Alex and me. It will not be practical if the members have to go out four times in a month, so I thought that why not have a combo gathering for all? So here it is, a July babies birthday gathering. But Symone and Alex were not able to make it there with us that day :(

Invite-only event at Facebook! Please ignore the date stated there as when we all reached agreement to have gathering on 28/7/2012, I did not bother to edit the date there anymore. And coincidentally, the date we picked for this gathering is the same date as my last year's birthday gathering! *big grin* And ignore the location as well. During the time, jimui Kyle was in UK, but because I don't want to miss him out, I just invited him to the event just to keep him updated. And then his hands just got itchy to change the location to UK, LOL

The girls had this weird obsession towards pork, yes, pork. Sorry my Muslim friends. And the venue chosen for this gathering was The Pork Place at Puchong. As we came in a big group, we occupied the whole upstairs area, as the area is small and only a table for 12 seats is placed there.

 Pork knuckles. Pork lovers will love this. It is good to share among 5-6 peoples.

One of the dishes ordered by the girls which I forgot what is the dish name and who ordered it. #disadvantageofbloggingoutdatedevent

Pork spaghetti which I regret ordering it. It is nice but came in big biggie portion. Can't finish it up by myself. I should just stick to sausages next time geez

Extra snacks brought by bestie Jesz. Chocolate from Europe!

Group shoots for the day. I represent July babies to thank you all that come :)

Like usual, there is always second round for our group. The next stop is at Subang Parade, as the girls wanted to watch movie.

 Yamcha at Uncle Lim while waiting for the screening time for Ice Age 4.

Random photos taken at Subang Parade. It was the first time we watch movie together in cinema in such a big group!

Pressie time!

 Pressie gathered from all over Europe for me! =') *touched* 

Because they know well that I love to at least do something to my eyes before going out.

Another present for my needs. Days before the gathering, I had posted a picture of melted comb into my Instagram *picture below* and then lovely jimuis decided to buy me this set of hair styling. I knew this present in advance but I just thought of the normal comb-type hair dryer. Never expect to get the big biggie set of hair styler.  

Cheap plastic comb melted because I placed the comb too near to the dryer LOL

Thank you all my girls and I love you all <3 jimuiforever=")<BR">

When you have no one to talk with

I can't remember well but this probably had broken my record - the first pencil I break in year 2013. And one is not enough. And this is the one and only pencil inside my drawer. Great. Could not take it more and break into tears. Had you been in a situation that you have no one to talk with? I mean, not even one. I am not forever alone. I got people I loved, people I cared for and I knew there are people outside there that care for me, and love me. But there is just time when I could think a million of people who I can talk to, but I knew that this would not work. It is not like I do not trust them but sometimes, you just will know that they won't understand your situation. They care for me I knew but I knew better that they could not put themselves in my shoes.

For days I had this ill tummy that it had not been cured till now.

For days I had come back my rented room and had to work under only a fan and you all should know how hot it is nowadays. Sleep every night almost naked and still can wake up in sweat the next morning. Sometimes I don't understand why I tortured myself so much and refused to get myself a room with air cond. I am not the one taking care of the room rent anyway.

For weeks and months I had been having nightmares during the sleep. I wake before the alarm rings. I wake feeling tired everyday. I am really going crazy from this soon.

For days and weeks I felt so pressured and stressed in work. To a point that I keep making mistakes in my paper work. And to a point that I doubt the quality of my own work. This is seriously ridiculous, as when I first entered into working field, I was very confident with my own work. I produce the best I can give. When there is conflict in work, I stand still holding my working papers firm, saying that my works and figures are the right one. And what happened now? I have no idea how is all these happening.

Senior assigned me work, which I think it is ridiculous for me to complete the task after my work hours. If it only takes minutes, then why can't I do it tomorrow in the office? Make no difference, right? People just bully me the cheap labor too much.

I had just deal with one of most stubborn people I knew in this world. Wtf is wrong with delaying the project for just another year? I am tired with this. You are the one leading this anyway. Your project, your problem. Again, wtf.

I had promised to help with someone's report. Deadline is nearing and my part is not ready yet. I really felt like giving up, and go up to him and tell him, "Hey, sorry, I think you gotta finish this by yourself". Everyday, on average, after deducting my work hours, eat and sleep hours, I had only two hours to do the report daily. Hard for me to do this, I must say. Agreed to help at the first time just thinking to help and to train myself to be able to work and study at the same time. Regretted.

Stupid laptop decided to cause me problem at this hour. Like the problem it gave me last week was not enough. What kind of laptop, really, that could not open a microsoft word document due to whatever environment variable.

One personal laptop and one company laptop. Had two laptops but none is being helpful. Again I wonder why I need to help my parents save so much. We are not rich but I am certain that they are able to get me a new laptop.

So now that I had speak up. Does anyone really understand what I am facing and feeling right now? How unhappy/ stressful/ angry to the point I need to break a pencil and break into tears?

I don't think so. So I have to find my own solution. Pity pencil. Wasted few tissues too. And oh, pity my company's laptop too, to take the hard slam from me.

Used up the only pencil I had and I gonna stock more pencils tomorrow.

Turning 22

#bloggingdebt

6th July my birthday! This year birthday fell on Friday and there was a two hour class there! I remembered bugging the lecturer to cancel the class so I can go out have fun the whole day :p And of course, the whole class was doing the same thing too #lazybug And when she agreed, I was already ticking a yes to my planning! Sunway Pyramid, here I am! Yup, again Pyramid. Like I have no other places to go LOL That is my favourite shopping mall ma.

So woke up early in the morning to doll up myself and get ready to be pampered on my big day!

Make for the day. My make for every outing is the same =.=

Outfit of the day. The entire outfit was bought the day before at Jusco Seremban. Saw the outfit being modeled by a mannequin and think it was nice, so I went to pick up the exact same outfit #totalloserthatdunnohowtopickheroutfit T_T

This is not relevant to my birthday post but since we are on the outfit topic, I shall just go on a little further :p I love love love one piece dress, any one piece dress is nice to me. So then I saw a dress and I went to try on it.

And I think I look like crocodile hunter female version here =.=

Anyway, back to the topic, so the first to do when reached Pyramid was to hunt for food! Was craving for buffet so went to Shogun, my favourite Japanese buffet restaurant.

 Fried stuff 

 Teppanyaki! I major heart the teppanyaki section at Shogun, cause you can choose your own ingredients and ask the chef to prepare it for you. Way better than Jogoya's. 

 Fried stuff again!

 My favourite sushi! See the beautiful orange, yellow and green ebi? 

Ice cream is still the best. And yes, they were all mine =) #fatdieme

And since my seat had good lighting, selca is a must!

 Look at the pimples! Can't help, it was the peak time during the semester. 

 Poser

"Hmm.. If I eat these now, then they will be finished then I can't eat ice cream anymore." Nah! This won't happen in a buffet. Just eat till you fat :p

After eating, it was time to get me a pressie yay! And guess what I get.

Hahah sorry, was too into the Paper Camera app that time. Thanks the special one who bought me this. I refused till the end, not willing to have a expensive present but still he was insisting till the end to buy me this. 

Me acting like watch model for Bonia advertisement LOL

Then it was time to shop till you drop. Actually nothing to shop la, already near bankruptcy after bought the watch LOL But the boutiques were all bringing in blazers! I love blazers! Went to Zara and I fell in love at first sight with a white blazer. But the price made me think twice. Didn't buy it at the last but start missing it like crazy after back to home, and went to find back the week after and it was gone! T_____T I want back my white Zara blazer *bangs head to wall* Tried on blazers from other brands but still they did not look as good as Zara's T____T

 This was from Seeds. Again, I copy the mannequin's outfit #totalloserthatdunnohowtopickheroutfit All white! Me likey. But still, Zara's blazer is still better T__T Why the hell I hesitate to buy it that time? Imma gonna hunt all Zara boutiques till I get that blazer! 

 Then I had ice cream from Stickhouse. Like the tons of ice cream in Shogun were not enough for me LOL What! No one will reject ice cream kays

 Look at the row of beautiful colors

And this was mine =)

For dinner, Delicious was the choice =) Had been at the restaurant few times before and they served good food with good services. So re-visit is a must!

As the name suggest, the food there are delicious. 

Forgot the name of this dish :x but it was nice =)

So that was basically how I celebrated my birthday. Simple yet meaningful =) There was actually a bit run off in the plan as the original plan was to have buffet for both lunch and dinner! Idiot =.= Ended up the dinner buffet at Sunway Tower (!!!) was cancelled and replaced with Delicious. And a lot of thanks, hugs, kisses to those who wish me on Facebook, those who call and message me! I got all the wishes and all the best to you guys too! I love you all!

The next post should be about my birthday celebration with my besties =)

To eat, drink, and have fun

#bloggingdebts
I am so lazy that I can't stand myself too T_T It is time to pick back the promise and clear my debt. 

So after the final, it was time to eat, drink, sleep and play. Met up bestie and we planned to go shopping (and eat!) as we were both too free. Were planning to have a day trip to Sg. Wang or Times Square at first, as they were convenient to be reached by public transport but something else came in the plan. Bestie got call to attend an interview at KL thus we made the trip together.

It was a 2 day 1 night trip, departing on 16th and returning back on 17th May (yes, I knew it was almost 4 months back #lazyblogger T_T) Nothing special on the first day as most of time was spent on travelling from hometown and bestie gotta attend her interview. At the night, we went to Sunway Pyramid to celebrate a friend's birthday.

Steven and his birthday meal. He was so happy that we were treating him dinner as present LOL

We went to Ole Ole Bali at Pyramid to celebrate his birthday. Environment and food there were very nice. Minus out some food that I couldn't take because they were too spicy.

 Decoration on the table. Send this picture to a friend and he thought I was in spa haha. 

Food was really not bad but very big in portion. 4 of us were sharing 3 set of meals and they were very fulfilling. If you wish to go, go after you starve yourself for a day =)

The night was then spent with movie and gossips! Bestie has a house in Subang so I was spending the night there with her. We girls gotta do a lot of pillow talks ;)

The next day, we went to shop and eat. First we went to Puchong because bestie had business to deal with her AirAsia flight ticket. And since we were at Puchong, we just went into random restaurant and had our breakfast there.

Can't remember the restaurant name. But the food there was nice. Worth the pricey bill LOL

Then we departed to Times Square/Sg Wang. It had been long time since we went there and we thought that we could shop till we drop as both the places were well known for the cheap attires. But it was disappointing that we could not find any attires that we like. Maybe we had found one or two, but since almost all shops does not allow trying on the clothes, we just walked off =.= The best bargain that we could get were footwear which cost only RM15 per pair. I got myself a pair of decent sandal and bestie got herself a pair of ballet flat.

We shamelessly went to take picture with the decorations at the corner of one specific floor in Sg. Wang LOL Who else could be more shameless and childish than us? 

The plan to go back hometown after shopping was changed when we both wanted to go Levain. Bestie had went Levain before and she missed the food there while I was dying to go there after I saw beautiful photos posted by friends in Facebook LOL So Levain it is.

Tourist pose: Must pose in front of the building with the name/signboard so that everyone can know that you were here LOL

Met a secondary school friend working in Levain. This is such a small world! My memory didn't fail me when I can still remember his full name given that we were only hi-bye friends during school time. Long time no see, Chan Chun Heng =)

Bread there were superb! I had maple bread and a slice of pizza. I wanted to try the pasta there but since I was still full that time, I just took the bread T_T Had iced chocolate drink and it tasted super awful! I am a big fan of chocolate and as long as it is chocolate, it is a good food/drink. And it was the first (and hopefully the last time) I would put a 'yulk' face to chocolate. 

And what is Levain without its famous macaroon? Because I love my family so much, I decided to buy back macaroon for them.

A row of very colorful and yummy macaroons =) Ok la, they were not that colorful because I was afraid that if I choose macaroon with striking colors, those barbarians at my home refuse to eat it LOL And at the end, they took the macaroons like normal cookies =.=  

So that was the last stop before we headed back to Raub, a place with no entertainment. Other besties gonna kill me after I posted this :p Sorry girls, it was weekday and you all were busy with classes and work haha. We will go shopping together the next time kays? =)